^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ See Current contributions. See Feb 01 contributions. See Jan 01 contributions. ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^]x Fri Mar 30 14:11:12 2001 F38 in , == - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Found us by: [ Stumbled on it ] - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - More personal info: go ahead and post any info you have - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Most Significant Recent Death Exp was death of Mother, 1 1/2 mos ago. Cause of Death: complications of pnuemonia; Aged: 60. --Details: her organs failed, my dad and I talked about taking her off the life support machines, which we did - - - - - - - - - - - - - - T O P I C A L S - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - --Death Is: our bodies wear out or we are ill or have an accident, which our physical body cannot heal from. --The first time I ever experienced someone's death, I was confused. I knew that dead meant no-one would ever see you again and that was it. --That first time, how it happened was How it happened was...it was a next door neighbor who died of cancer, I remember he died after getting a "rubber"stomach. --The Most Vivid memory I have of this most recent death is: the look in Moms eyes as she died, I was stroking her hair and holding her hand, telling her we would be ok and to let go and quit fighting. The "light" in her eyes faded, sometimes I can still see her eyes and it haunts me. --What I think my () culture needs to better learn about death is: be more open about it, feel free to grieve, not be so "closed" or feel it is a totally "bad" thing. It is part of the life cycle. --One gift for which I shall always be grateful is: That my Mom is no longer in physical agony, that She and I were close at the time of her death. That the last time I spoke to her, the words were I love you. That I had her for a mother, she did a lot of good things to help people --What was of most support to me in my experience with death was: I am an addict in recovery. My recovery friends just listening and crying with me. --And the most difficult for me in my experience with death was: that I will never see her again, that she is no longer there to talk to and laugh with. --Regarding just Being There for someone dying, my advice would be: dont be afraid to touch them,or talk to them. Make the place where they die as homey as possible. Give them dignity, even in death. --[My Mother's] death taught me so much. I'd have others know how I: am quitting saving stuff for a "special occasion". My Mom wore a fancy western shirt(that she bought 5 yrs ago)at the time of her death. She had never worn it before then cuz she was saving it. Same with her new set of china that she got for Xmas. She saved it and died before she could use it. It makes me angry to think about that too. --The most confusing point of death for me was when: my Dad would cry and all I could do was cry with him. Also none of my Moms " church friends" came by or called. 2 of them came to Memorial service and that was it. --Regarding Humor in the death process, I'd just say that: I've thought that it was Mom and her dark humor, helping me to lighten up a little bit. --Not that it's a regret, but I would like to have better had time to: get to Moms bedside before she went into the coma, I was trapped in Airport overnight due to bad weather. --But some things worked out so well... I'm SO GLAD I was able to: be there. And to give Mom some "touches" of home before she died. That I was able to get my brother out from prison for the service. --One seemingly minor thing (yet important) which impressed me was when: I had them put Moms dentures in. so she could die with some dignity. I also tried to fix her hair for her. Maybe those little things were just important to me?? --And exactly backwards: what we didn't make a big deal of, was: having a big fancy funeral. we had a memorial service for my Mom. She always said she didn't want people looking at her dead and making comments. --I can get all teary-eyed just thinking about it all again when: I find things of hers or see something she would like..and I DO cry.. --In another dimension of Life where this all had never happened... I don't know..I really don't see much changing from the way it was. --Sometimes I think: It's just not fair... that Mom didnt live to see my first grandchild (due this May) --It's sometimes so very difficult. I just wish I could crawl into a hole and hide and cry. --When it really hit me... when I realized & acknowledged the death, I picked up the phone after coming home, and went to call Mom. I knew she wouldn't be there to answer the phone --Regarding MEDICINE, DOCTORS, etc: well, I was not happy with the Dr, because I was in another state, and he didn't return my phone calls. I hardly got a straight answer when I did call the Hospital. I almost punched a nurse for making the comment of"She doesn't know what is going on anyway" when I was out of Moms room. Over all tho, the Staff was very supportive and helpful during Moms last hours. I did wonder why they kept wanting to do things that were usless like taking Moms blood sugar... --Regarding HOSPICE etc: I wish she hadn't of died in a Hospital. She wanted to die at home --Regarding CHURCHES, RELIGION, etc: Oh, I am NOT real happy with her church. She was a very faithful member and the family was pretty much ignored by the other members. --Religious Affiliation: LDS.Past) (Mom was LDS too) --Regarding MONEY: a family member stole a check and forged and cashed it... --Regarding the FUNERAL: it was about Moms life and what she did for others. --SOME OF THE COMMON SIGNS OF DEATH : gee maybe the life support machines?..sorry...:) --How might you deal with yet unresolved issues from a death?: I feel good about the relationship with my Mom. I didn't have anything that hadnt been "taken care of" --If we were to visit one last conversation... If I could, I want to know if she knew I was there, did she feel any pain at her death? Is where she is now a good place? --Regarding Rights & Wishes of the Dying: make sure your last wishes are somewhere on paper where they can be found. write down EVERYThing. --Any thoughts about your own death?: I am not in a big hurry, I am not afraid of it tho. - - - - - P e r s o n a l H i s t o r y - - - - - 1st Death event occurred in my life at: Young Child How'd I do? Very Well What Helped me most deal with death? Ability to Forget What Hindered me most in my dealing with death? Silence & Taboos I recall no one wanting to talk about it.. - - - Comments on this Questionnaire & collection GuestBook - - - it helped, just talking about it. ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ Fri Mar 30 14:01:36 2001 F32 in Dallas, tx =usa= Name: Lisa Email: <krautgirl=at=ivebeenframed.com> - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Found us by: [ Web Search: ] Prof/Studies: english teacher - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Most Significant Recent Death Exp was death of GrandMother, yrs20 ago. Cause of Death: heart attack; Aged: 70. --Details: My aunt annie who is mentally unstable, was living with my grandmother at the time of her death. They had an argument that led to my grandmothers death - - - - - - - - - - - - - - T O P I C A L S - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - --Death Is: a process, just like being born. Being born also means to die. It's the ceasing of one live, to begin another. --The first time I ever experienced someone's death, I was 14yrs.old. It was sort of like i was watching it happen to someone else. Somethings i remember clearly, and somethings are fuzzy, like a dream. --That first time, how it happened was How it happened was...my grandmother died of a heart attack when i was 14. She was very special, and i didn't want to believe it. --The Most Vivid memory I have of this most recent death is: The way my mother broke down. I felt like she wasn't going to make it through. --What I think my (usa) culture needs to better learn about death is: That person you love has moved on with another part of their exsistence. The body is just a shell. --One gift for which I shall always be grateful is: To always tell people how much you love them, because you may not get another chance. --And the most difficult for me in my experience with death was: Not being able to turn back the clock to say i love you. --The most confusing point of death for me was when: I wasn't confused. To be absent from the body, is to be present with the lord. --Not that it's a regret, but I would like to have better had time to: Tell her what a wonder woman she was, and how very much i love her. --But some things worked out so well... I'm SO GLAD I was able to: Be strong when it counted. --I can get all teary-eyed just thinking about it all again when: I see my son laughing, and she's not here to see it. --Sometimes I think: It's just not fair... ....I didn't have enough time. --It's sometimes so very difficult. I just wish I could Sit down and talk to her. --When it really hit me... when I realized & acknowledged the death, I Just cried. --Religious Affiliation: Born again christian --Regarding ONENESS of SPIRIT, etc: We all came from god, and we will all go BACK to him. We are HIS children. --Regarding MONEY: My mother and i didn't have the money to fly to new york for the funeral. we were living in texas at the time. --How might you deal with yet unresolved issues from a death?: I feel i have made peace with my guilt. I was only 14yrs.old when she called me for what would be the last time. I was so rude to her.....BUT, i was 14!! I was behaving like any smart-ass know-it-all teenager, and i know she knows that. --If we were to visit one last conversation... Just to have her say she forgives me. --RE: After-death visits from our loved ones: Yes, the day my grandmother died, that night i had a dream. in it, my grandmother was calling me on the phone telling me she was alright, and for my mother not to worry! --Regarding Rights & Wishes of the Dying: Everyone should have a say in how they want to die. Death is a very personal thing. --Any thoughts about your own death?: I want them to play "Higher" by Creed at my funeral. --Any Coping Ritual or Event you invented / devised to help you cope: Just a long, good cry when i feel like i need to. - - - - - P e r s o n a l H i s t o r y - - - - - 1st Death event occurred in my life at: Teen Ager How'd I do? Well What Helped me most deal with death? Crying and Crying beliving she was with christ. I still believe it. What Hindered me most in my dealing with death? Guilt I still feel guilty about the last time i spoke with her. i was rude to her over the phone. the next thing i knew, she was dead. --As for reaching out helping others now as part of my healing process: I would just be there for that person whenever they needed me. - - - Comments on this Questionnaire & collection GuestBook - - - This was a nice site, with good questions. ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ Thu Mar 29 17:22:50 2001 F15 in Louisville, Kentucky =USA= Name: Suzi Email: <SuziQ12=at=aol.com> - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Found us by: [ Stumbled on it ] Prof/Studies: student - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Most Significant Recent Death Exp was death of Aunt, 3 months ago. Cause of Death: cancer; Aged: 40s. --Details: My aunt got sick last summer with lung, pancreatic, bone, and other cancers. She died January 2, leaving her husband and kids (my cousins whom i am very close to) - - - - - - - - - - - - - - T O P I C A L S - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - --Death Is: final. --The first time I ever experienced someone's death, I was in disbelief...and very worried about my own family. --That first time, how it happened was One of my friend's mothers had a heart attack in the bathroom in the middle of the night, hit her head on the counter and died. I was in fourth grade. The girl had to move away because she lived with her single mother before her death --The Most Vivid memory I have of this most recent death is: not crying until months later, when i realized that my aunt was truly gone. --What I think my (USA) culture needs to better learn about death is: it is not so terrible. --One gift for which I shall always be grateful is: i learned to appreciate my family more dearly. --What was of most support to me in my experience with death was: my parents --And the most difficult for me in my experience with death was: why she died at such a young age. --[My Aunt's] death taught me so much. I'd have others know how I: can deal with it. --The most confusing point of death for me was when: i was trying to figure out why it happened. --Regarding Humor in the death process, I'd just say that: i was trying to make everyone feel better. --Not that it's a regret, but I would like to have better had time to: be a little nicer. --But some things worked out so well... I'm SO GLAD I was able to: know her. --One seemingly minor thing (yet important) which impressed me was when: i saw the body, and it looked so empty. --And exactly backwards: what we didn't make a big deal of, was: the service. --I can get all teary-eyed just thinking about it all again when: i think about never seeing my aunt on earth again. --In another dimension of Life where this all had never happened... ohh i have no idea. --Sometimes I think: It's just not fair... that she died so young. --It's sometimes so very difficult. I just wish I could i dunno. --When it really hit me... when I realized & acknowledged the death, I broke down. --Regarding MEDICINE, DOCTORS, etc: they tried their best. --Regarding HOSPICE etc: it was heartbreaking. --Regarding CHURCHES, RELIGION, etc: a place to turn. --Religious Affiliation: Catholic. --Regarding ONENESS of SPIRIT, etc: very true. --Regarding MONEY: the service, casket, etc. --Regarding the FUNERAL: everyone was so upset. --The weirdest part of it all to me was: not crying at the funeral. --SOME OF THE COMMON SIGNS OF DEATH : losing will to live. --SOME OF THE COMMON STAGES OF GRIEF: i was at first in denial and disbelief...months later it hit me....like a freight train. --RE: Visions from the 'Other Side': my mom had an experience like that. --RE: Near Death Experiences: nope. --How might you deal with yet unresolved issues from a death?: my church and family. --RE: After-death visits from our loved ones: nope --Any thoughts about your own death?: i have no idea. --Any Coping Ritual or Event you invented / devised to help you cope: not really! --Any Coping Rituals or Events which have carried over into your life? i think about my aunt a lot - - - - - P e r s o n a l H i s t o r y - - - - - 1st Death event occurred in my life at: Young Child How'd I do? Very Difficult What Helped me most deal with death? Passage of Time What Hindered me most in my dealing with death? Avoiding Everything ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ Wed Mar 28 13:32:37 2001 F21 in St. Petersburg, Florida =USA= Web: http://WWW.angelfire.com/fl2/weep - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Found us by: [ Web Search: ] Ran a search on surveys - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Prof/Studies: Real Estate but studying Forensics, pathology, and psychology - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Most Significant Recent Death Exp was death of Friend, 6 months ago. Cause of Death: Heroin Overdose; Aged: 19. --Details: A lot of us never knew that he was using Heroin. I had never known, nor did I suspect it. I saw him and talked to him the night that he died. Nothing seemed unusual, he hugged me and we chatted for a few minutes. He and his girlfriend went home to shoot up and she woke up the next day, and he did not. At first I was in extreme denial. Saying no, someone had the wrong information. But then I was angry at him. And after that I was just sad. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - T O P I C A L S - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - --Death Is: The end of existance. The person that dies goes away. Their body may be here for a short time but all that is them exits their body and we never see them again. --The first time I ever experienced someone's death, I was six years old. I understood what was going on. I knew that my grandfather was gone and I was sad and angry at my grandmother. --That first time, how it happened was How it happened was...It was my grandfather that died, when I was six years old. He died of colon cancer, so it was a long process. It bothered me most when I went to the hospital and he didn't recognize me, as we were very close. --The Most Vivid memory I have of this most recent death is: The death of my grandfather when I was six. The thing I remember most vividly is the fact that the funeral seemed surreal. It didn't seem like it was really him at the wake. And then It seemed like something out of the movies. Each grandchild carried something of importance to him up to the altar at the church. The funeral was on a gray day, and the words ashes to ashes dust to dust sent shivers down my spine and to this day still unnerves me. --What I think my (USA) culture needs to better learn about death is: Being sensitive to the way that it affects other people. Everyone reacts differently to death and no one should be given a hard time in addition to their greif for the way that they react. --One gift for which I shall always be grateful is: My grandfather's death was to him, morally his only way to escape my grandmother's evil ways. And I am happy for his release. --What was of most support to me in my experience with death was: Being left a lone at first and being able to cry. And then later having someone to talk to. --And the most difficult for me in my experience with death was: Not having the person to be with anymore. --Regarding Humor in the death process, I'd just say that: I think that sometimes we laugh as a way to deal with horrible things and that it's healthy sometimes. --Not that it's a regret, but I would like to have better had time to: Say goodbye --But some things worked out so well... I'm SO GLAD I was able to: Be a good person through that persons life --I can get all teary-eyed just thinking about it all again when: a song comes on that reminds me of a person or a time...music reminds me the most of past experiences. --When it really hit me... when I realized & acknowledged the death, I felt a deep loss that I felt in my mind my heart and my stomach --Regarding CHURCHES, RELIGION, etc: That we were going to see them in the New System of things, so the grief wasn't as great. We had hope. --Religious Affiliation: Past affiliation was Jehovah's Witness. I am currently wandering...lost, looking at Zen at the momemnt. --The weirdest part of it all to me was: The actual life being snuffed out part...when the life left the body. With certain people, I have known they were gone even before the call. --SOME OF THE COMMON SIGNS OF DEATH : Defeat in their eyes. --RE: Near Death Experiences: Once while I was somewhat younger I overdosed on drugs. While I was out I was talking to God. He was explaining to me the meaning for all things. The reason for existance and all the other questions we as humans never seem to know. As I started to come back God was aliens and they waved goodbye and took off in their space shuttle. I can't remember what they said to me. --RE: After-death visits from our loved ones: My grandfather's spirit remains at my Uncle's Farmhouse, which used to by my grandmother and grandfather's. People working the feilds see him walking through, inspecting crops. My brother and I have seen him walk up the stairs to the attic. My grandmother said that he came to her room sometimes in the night and she would wake to see him standing over her bed. --Regarding Rights & Wishes of the Dying: I think that it's important to honor the rights and wishes of the dying. Let them die happy. Let them die with honor and respect. --Any thoughts about your own death?: I think about death a lot, and I am afraid to die, but at the same time I am not afraid of what will happen to me afterwards. IT's a mystery, but something I will have to wait and see when I get there. Everyday I am reminded of my own mortality. And I hope that when I die it is quickly and mercifully. --Any Coping Ritual or Event you invented / devised to help you cope: Painting. - - - - - P e r s o n a l H i s t o r y - - - - - 1st Death event occurred in my life at: Very Young Child How'd I do? Adequate What Helped me most deal with death? Passage of Time What Hindered me most in my dealing with death? Family's Insensitivities At the funeral my grandmother scolded me for crying. Also the funeral service freaked me out. I still have nightmares about "Ashes to Ashes, Dust to Dust" --As for reaching out helping others now as part of my healing process: When friends die, I try to do something that they wanted to do in life, for them. Or to volunteer at a hospital or group they would be interested in. I also talk to others about the things that I am going through so they know that they aren't alone in the grief process. ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ Tue Mar 27 11:30:46 2001 F18 in Waterford, Mi =us= Name: Darlene Email: <Lois172000=at=hotmail.com> - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Found us by: [ Web Search: ] - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Most Significant Recent Death Exp was death of Uncle, 1-1/2yrs ago. Cause of Death: murder; Aged: 46. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - T O P I C A L S - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - --Death Is: a horrible thing for any individual to go through. It's like somone waves a magic wond and you can no longer communicate as we are used to with that idvidual. You feel lost but after a while the pain subdues. you'll always miss the person but you learn to cope. death as horrible as it is for the survivors can have many lessons. --The first time I ever experienced someone's death, I was quite young. My grandpa who was my best friend died of cancer. I felt lost. As soon as the nurse said he was gone i became violently ill. I tried to remember all the good things and times we had shared. As angry as i was with god for taking him from me i was very happy that the person who i cared so much about would no longer be in pain. --That first time, how it happened was How it happened was...both my grandpa, who was my best friend and my uncle died of cancer within a few months of each other. --What I think my (us) culture needs to better learn about death is: Learning how to help children cope and realize how much honesty plays a role in a childs experiance with death --What was of most support to me in my experience with death was: remembering the good times and trying to find the good in the situation. --And the most difficult for me in my experience with death was: being able to let go. that is the hardest part. Next to trying to understand it. --Regarding just Being There for someone dying, my advice would be: bring up the good times and the funny stories. By all means i beleive under NO circumstances should someone say "i know how you feel" someone may know how they think it feels but no one has the exact same relationship with another, therefore they dont know exactly how it feels. comparing is fine saying "well i know when... I felt..." but never does one fully understand. --Regarding Humor in the death process, I'd just say that: people can only stay kooked up in their heads for so long then you have to break out and realize you still have yourself. --Not that it's a regret, but I would like to have better had time to: tell them how i felt about them, tell them i love them one more time,wished they would have been around to see my life acomplishments. --Sometimes I think: It's just not fair... YOu must then ask yourself what would be fair? --It's sometimes so very difficult. I just wish I could become an ostrach and burry my head in the sand for a while! --Religious Affiliation: i was a practicing christian but now i never go to church --Regarding the FUNERAL: as close as i was i didnt know anyone in the room except my family. --Any New Friends emerge in the shared grieving process of Death? Both me and my Boyfriend lost people we truly cared about we found that our experiances though seperate helped us to understand each other. - - - - - P e r s o n a l H i s t o r y - - - - - 1st Death event occurred in my life at: Pre-Teen How'd I do? How well What Helped me most deal with death? Passage of Time What Hindered me most in my dealing with death? Memories - - - Comments on this Questionnaire & collection GuestBook - - - i found it to be interesting it made me think and possibly look at things in a different light. ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ Tue Mar 27 01:06:36 2001 F49 in Phoenix, Arizona =USA= Name: Jo Ann Muench Email: <camelbackcat=at=yahoo.com> - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Found us by: [ Web Search: ] Prof/Studies: former history professor Recommended Reading-- Writers: Kubler Ross - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Most Significant Recent Death Exp was death of Parents, 2 1/2- 3 yrs ago. Cause of Death: colon cancer/prostotate cancer/congestive heart failure; Aged: 69/80. --Details: Mother's death from colon cancer was totally unexpected and swift. She was diagnosed in August of 1997 and died Jan. 8 1998. Her physical deterioration was horrible to see, but her spirit was strong and her mind was clear until the moment of her death. She wanted to die at home and we used Hospice for the final days of her life. Her death was very dignified, peaceful and beautiful. Although we had a maid and nurses, much of the intimate caregiving was left up to me. At the time I felt honored to be able to help her in this way. Later, as grief deepened it left a very strong and lingering feeling of horror. After Mom's burial, I immediately had to begin dealing with my Dad who was already ill with congestive heart failure and prostate cancer. His grief was so acute that we were in constant fear that he might take his own life. The five months between mom's death and dad's were a nightmare. I could not grieve properly for mom because I was totally involved with caring for my dad. Again, we had a maid, nurses etc. and , again the emotional support etc. came from me. I felt guilt because I often wished it would just end. He asked that Hospice be brought in and his heart medications were discontinued. He died at the Hospice Inpatient Facility very quickly, and peacefully. I felt relief, grief, anger, and a total draining of emotions. Looking back, I was sleep walking through those months. Today, I remember them with love, with laughter and sometimes with tears. The worst memories are beginning to fade. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - T O P I C A L S - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - --Death Is: a shifting from the physical plane to the spiritual plane. We don't know exactly how it works, but something seems to survive physical death. Some of us believe in an afterlife which is a great comfort. However, I think we can be certain that the body is left behind and some essential part of us survivies in some form. Perhaps death is like being born. We move from one way of being to another. --The first time I ever experienced someone's death, I was a child and felt great fear about it. Not long afterwards, I began to have what must have been panic attacks and became somewhat of a hypochondriac. The --That first time, how it happened was How it happened was...my paternal grandmother died when I was 11. At the time, my parents left for her funeral and did not involve us children in any of the funeral activities. We were told that she had died and little else. Looking back, I felt left out and that , for some reason, I was not recognized as someone who might grieve over her passing. Later, my parents said they had erred in excluding us from the funeral, but they thought we were too young to have to face such an event. And, I believe they were afraid to let us see them cry. That was something we did not do in our family. --The Most Vivid memory I have of this most recent death is: The way in which my mother and my father thanked me for being with them through it all..for mom, it was the dignity with which she died; for dad, it was the smile on his face as he died. --What I think my (USA) culture needs to better learn about death is: Death is part and parcel of life. We should not lock it away in cold, antiseptic hospitals. Participating in the "death watch" is difficult, yet it makes death seem less frightening and more of what it is: our transformation. --One gift for which I shall always be grateful is: The gift of being able to love and care for my parents; the time we had to discuss and resolve all issues and to openly and freely express our love, and the strong feeling I had that an afterlife existed. I also learned that, contrary to my previous ideas, I was a very strong person. --What was of most support to me in my experience with death was: Strangely, when Mom died, she was the greatest support to me. She actively discussed her death and comforted me as she was dying. Dad's death was helped by the knowledge that he was going where he wanted to go. I did read all the books that I could find on the process of death and dying, and on grief, and they were helpful. My aunt was more than helpful as were two dear friends. Although my brothers helped, there help was not enough...they had their own grief to deal with. I found the clergy to be, in the main, very unhelpful. They offered platitudes. --And the most difficult for me in my experience with death was: Seeing my parents, who had been so strong, and so beautiful deteriorate bodily.. Also, it was very hard work to care for them...physically hard and emotionally. Later, the hardest part was adjusting to a world which was completely reordered and where nothing was as it had been. --Regarding just Being There for someone dying, my advice would be: Talk to them. Hold them. Do not fear touching them. They need that touch. Talk about death. Tell them how you feel and ask them how they feel. At a certain point accept the inevitable and plan and discuss it as a normal part of life. Most importantly, give them permission to go, if they want. Let them know that you are heartbroken, but that you will survive. --[My Parents's] death taught me so much. I'd have others know how I: was capable of doing things that I thought were beyond my capacity....changing diapers, clothes, etc. All my sqeamishness disappeared. I found that I focussed on each moment and enjoyed those moments for themselves. I also learned about unselfish love. Lastly, I had a remarkable spiritual awakening brought about by being at their deathbeds. --The most confusing point of death for me was when: It actually happened. I couldn't tell...nor could the nurses tell me immediately whether they had died or had slipped into a coma. I found myself insisting to the nurses in Hospice that they were dead. It was my intuition..a sense that the soul had left the body, --Regarding Humor in the death process, I'd just say that: I laughed, we all laughed. Sometimes we laughed to avoid tears, but at other times, we laughed because we saw humor even in the grimmest of situations. Laughter was a great release. --Not that it's a regret, but I would like to have better had time to: Have changed my mother's gown and dressed her in a pretty robe before the undertaker's came. She would have hated leaving the house dressed as she was. With Dad, I wish I had stayed with his body longer. I was so tired and emotionally wiped out, that I left the Hospice within a few minutes after his death and let Hospice arrange for the transfer of his body. I also wish I'd viewed my Mom's body in the casket. She was so destroyed by cancer that I thought I did not want to see her like that again. However, I viewed Dad's body and found it comforting. --But some things worked out so well... I'm SO GLAD I was able to: Keep mom at home until her death and living a more or less normal routine up until the last day. I'm thankful that we were able to talk and to cry and to touch. With Dad, I'm grateful we could break through the barriers and express our love for one another. Two nights before his death, I asked if I could crawl in his lap like a little girl. I sat there and cried and he patted me on the back. We both felt like we had when I was a child. --One seemingly minor thing (yet important) which impressed me was when: I began to notice, a few days before they died, that they were, seemingly, moving in and out of this world. They'd talk to their dead relatives etc. I felt they were sometimes here and sometimes there (wherever there may be) --And exactly backwards: what we didn't make a big deal of, was: Leaving the casket behind at the cemetery. I had no connection anymore with the shell that was once THEM.I --I can get all teary-eyed just thinking about it all again when: I remember a way of life that just has vanished. --In another dimension of Life where this all had never happened... that's one I can't answer. There deaths changed my life so much that I can't imagine another reality. After they died, I was financially able to leave the small town I'd always hated and moved to a beautiful resort city where I married the kind of man I should have been married to all along. --Sometimes I think: It's just not fair... that my beautiful, health-conscious, young mother should die before my Dad who had been near death for several years. --It's sometimes so very difficult. I just wish I could Have Dad back as the "fixer" and my Mom back as my confidante. --When it really hit me... when I realized & acknowledged the death, I woke one night about 6 months later and found myself completely immobilized. Everyone had said how spectacularly I had done; yet, I suddenly could not work, could not sleep, could not move. Fortunately, I was able to get in touch with a psychiatrist almost immediately and he diagnosed a clinical depression and began appropriate treatment. I took a leave of absence from my very demanding job and allowed myself to just BE for a period of time. I needed this time to heal. --Regarding MEDICINE, DOCTORS, etc: Except for one wonderful doctor, I have nothing but contempt for the doctors we met outside of hospice. They gave us little or no information, treated the dying as if they were no longer human and generally made our problems much worse. That is why we chose Hospice. Under no circumstances did my parents (or us children) want them to return to the hospital. --Regarding HOSPICE etc: Our contact was brief because we did not call them in until the last minute. They were very helpful in arranging drugs, equipment etc. BUT I felt that, in mom's home death, there should have been a hospice representative with us. And, when Dad died, I had to find the nurses and convince them that he was dying. --Regarding CHURCHES, RELIGION, etc: I received strength from the nuns at the Catholic hospital that they were in much of the time and I had great help from an iconoclastic retired pastor. The general clergy were not helpful. They were afraid of death and acted much as the doctors had. Strange huh? --Religious Affiliation: Past non-practicing Methodist/ current: practicing Catholic --Regarding ONENESS of SPIRIT, etc: exactly like what occurred. What happened was bigger than some kind of denominational relgion. It was mystical, it was spiritual, it was part of some huge universal experience --Regarding MONEY: money was a source of comfort: we had the money to assure them home care, nurses, maids etc. After their death, my brothers and I found ourselves wealthy and able to have more choices in our life. We saw this as a gift from my parents and didn't feel guilt over having the money. --Regarding the FUNERAL: My mom's funeral was in the Church. We sat with the congregation and it was a beautiful sense of sharing as I looked around and saw all the friends etc. ...some in tears.My Dad's funeral was in a funeral home chapel and we sat apart in a family room. This was a mistake. It distanced us from the congregation and we didn't have the sense of participation. --The weirdest part of it all to me was: How calm and rational I was. How my mind was so logical and orderly. Then, how I was almost "high" with the joy of what I saw was, for them, a better life. --SOME OF THE COMMON SIGNS OF DEATH : apnea, cyanosis, the mucus gathering in the throat, pooling of blood, lack of appetite etc. --SOME OF THE COMMON STAGES OF GRIEF: The grieving process wasn't some orderly process. It zigged and zagged. I still can't tell you what part of the grieving process I am in. --RE: Visions from the 'Other Side': In both cases, they saw dead loved ones. My mother saw the Blessed Mother. At Dad's death, I saw a shimmering light at the end of his bed. I immediately said "mother". Then, he died smiling. --RE: Near Death Experiences: I've never had a near death experience nor has anyone I know well. --How might you deal with yet unresolved issues from a death?: I truly feel that I was one of the fortunate few who was able to resolve all issues before their death. --If we were to visit one last conversation... I'd want to hear them say I'd done the best I could. And, regarding my divorce and remarriage, I'd like to know that they understood.. --RE: After-death visits from our loved ones: For several weeks after Mom's death, the lights kept going out. Later, we'd think about her and see a hummingbird. The wind chimes would ring without wind. Even today, I sometimes smell roses for no reason. I've dreamed of both of them several times with great clarity in which they held me, reassured me. In those dreams, I felt that I was definately meeting with them. --Regarding Rights & Wishes of the Dying: Type of funeral and disposal of the body. --Any thoughts about your own death?: My fear of death has lessened. Although I don't look forward to it anytime soon...I feel comfort and reassurance in my belief that we will be reunited in death. --Any Coping Ritual or Event you invented / devised to help you cope: It's not creative, but I'd talk out loud to them. I'd hold something of theirs and close my eyes. --Any Coping Rituals or Events which have carried over into your life? I inherited my parents home, their cars, their furniture, mom's jewelry. Although I no longer live in their house, I still wear mom's ring, and their furniture is all around me. This is very comforting. Certain sayings of theirs remain a part of my vocabulary. --Any New Friends emerge in the shared grieving process of Death? A good friend became my closest friend and my oldest and dearest friend became much less close. My husband and I became totally alienated from one another and divorced. I've remarried and my mother in law has become very dear to me. - - - - - P e r s o n a l H i s t o r y - - - - - 1st Death event occurred in my life at: Young Child How'd I do? Adequate What Helped me most deal with death? Lack of Awareness What Hindered me most in my dealing with death? Fear of Death --As for reaching out helping others now as part of my healing process: To help me, they could have let me talk about the events as much as I wanted. I had a need to go over and over the event in my mind. - - - Comments on this Questionnaire & collection GuestBook - - - This helped me reaffirm the thoughts that I had that we were very fortunate to have experienced death in the manner we did. ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ Mon Mar 26 20:39:55 2001 Anonymous Guest in , == - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Found us by: [ Web Search: ] The Papyrus of Ani - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Most Significant Recent Death Exp was death of Friend, 8 ago. Cause of Death: asfixiation; Aged: 18. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - T O P I C A L S - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - --Death Is: A departure of the conciousness to a higher plane of existence --The first time I ever experienced someone's death, I was oblivious --That first time, how it happened was A friend was trying to scare some other friends by making it look as though he had hanged himself and accidentally did hang himself. --The Most Vivid memory I have of this most recent death is: my friend's anger --What I think my () culture needs to better learn about death is: What it is - - - - - P e r s o n a l H i s t o r y - - - - - 1st Death event occurred in my life at: Young Child How'd I do? Very Well What Helped me most deal with death? Books & Films What Hindered me most in my dealing with death? Avoiding Everything ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ Sun Mar 25 13:51:47 2001 Anonymous Guest in , == - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Found us by: [ Web Search: ] when i search for it this is what came up - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Most Significant Recent Death Exp was death of GrandMother, 2 1/2 years ago. Cause of Death: sickness; Aged: 83. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - T O P I C A L S - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - --Death Is: Death is when people leave this earth and go up to heaven. it is a very hard thing to deal with. the hardest thing is trying to figure out why they had to leave his earth and what has really happened to them. i dont think it would be as scary if we only knew what happened to the people we love after they leave us. --The first time I ever experienced someone's death, I was 13 years old. I knew people who died before that but this was the first time that someone very close to me died. --That first time, how it happened was How it happened was...my grandmother was sick and then she got better. the day before we where going to take her home she got very sick and died the next day --The Most Vivid memory I have of this most recent death is: How sad and scary death really is. And how much people hurt. --What I think my () culture needs to better learn about death is: what really happenes to you when you die. --One gift for which I shall always be grateful is: That when people get sick and they are in alot of pain and there is no hope for them iam thankful that when they die they will feel no more pain and that they are at peace. --What was of most support to me in my experience with death was: Talking with people and sharing the memories that we had with her. --And the most difficult for me in my experience with death was: the pain that i felt. i couldnt understanmd why god choose to take her away from me. --Regarding just Being There for someone dying, my advice would be: That they know how much people really loved them and to tell them that we will me ok down here on earth. --[My GrandMother's] death taught me so much. I'd have others know how I: That everyone has to die sometime --The most confusing point of death for me was when: people get really sick and then just die and you dont have time to say goodbye. --Regarding Humor in the death process, I'd just say that: i never flt like that --Not that it's a regret, but I would like to have better had time to: Say goodbye. I never got to tell my grandmother just how much i loved her and to say goodbye. --But some things worked out so well... I'm SO GLAD I was able to: finally realize that death happened to eveyone and that when someone close to you dies that doesnt mean you are going to die then. --I can get all teary-eyed just thinking about it all again when: when i really stop and think about that she is really dead and never coming back. --Sometimes I think: It's just not fair... that she had to leave us --It's sometimes so very difficult. I just wish I could see her again --When it really hit me... when I realized & acknowledged the death, I It took me awhile to realize that she was really gone. When it finally hit me it was very hard but then i just remembered that she was in heaven and felt no more pain - - - - - P e r s o n a l H i s t o r y - - - - - 1st Death event occurred in my life at: Pre-Teen How'd I do? Very Difficult What Helped me most deal with death? Family's Sensitivities My friends and family and counseling What Hindered me most in my dealing with death? Crying and Crying ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ Sat Mar 24 19:05:11 2001 F37 in glendale, az =maricopa= Name: beth Email: <badams1963=at=home.com> - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Found us by: [ Web Search: ] Prof/Studies: cashier/mom - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - More personal info: I lost a sister that was 24 and a brother that was 34.I wish i could say I have delt with it. But I am not sure I have. It still hurts to bad. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Most Significant Recent Death Exp was death of Sister, 20 yrs ago. Cause of Death: medication; Aged: 24. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - T O P I C A L S - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - --That first time, how it happened was It was an aunt that had been very ill for a long time. --The Most Vivid memory I have of this most recent death is: not being able to breath.I was scared to death. --What I think my (maricopa) culture needs to better learn about death is: It isn't as complex as they make it --One gift for which I shall always be grateful is: They don't hurt any more! - - - - - P e r s o n a l H i s t o r y - - - - - 1st Death event occurred in my life at: Young Child How'd I do? Well What Helped me most deal with death? Family's Sensitivities It depends on which death you are refuring.There have been many. What Hindered me most in my dealing with death? Disbelief it could happen I am very selfish. I needed them here with me ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ Sat Mar 24 18:14:56 2001 M46 in Milford, CT =USA= Name: Beth Email: <Emccar4=at=aol.com> - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Found us by: [ Web Search: ] Prof/Studies: Respiratory Therapist - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Recommended Reading-- Titles: The worst Loss Recommended Reading-- Writers: Rosof - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Most Significant Recent Death Exp was death of Son, 9 ago. Cause of Death: trauma, an accident; Aged: 11. --Details: He was home alone, we were having our house remodeled, there was 1000 pounds of sheetrock leaning against a hall. Somehow, the sheetrock, shifter to the other side of the hall, pinning my son at the throat - - - - - - - - - - - - - - T O P I C A L S - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - --Death Is: the termination of one's existance here on this earth. The end of human contact, the end of the dreams and expectations for a long and fruitful life --The first time I ever experienced someone's death, I spent many weeks in a dinial stage. Yes I had buried him, but I was consumed with thoughts that I could somehow change this. --That first time, how it happened was How it happened was...my 11 year old some died at home as a result of a trauma --The Most Vivid memory I have of this most recent death is: People became afraid of me. Afraid to talk to me, for fear of making me sad. Perhaps they feared knowing to much about my pain would make them more vulnerable. I wanted to talk about my son, I needed to, but realized that friends and family didn't. It was such a trying time, at times I just wante to leave this existance and go be with my deceased son, it was too difficult to remain here --What I think my (USA) culture needs to better learn about death is: it is a reality. And the survivors suffer a great deal. The pain of the loss does not magically end after a year, or two or 3. The bereaved person is sturggling to come to their "new" reality, and so much need love and acceptance around them --One gift for which I shall always be grateful is: My sons death has afforded me the insight to reach out and help newly bereaved parents. I have spent years denying that anything good could have come with my sons death, and yet here it is, something good, and that makes me smile today --What was of most support to me in my experience with death was: Books, some select ones. And meeting with bereaved parents. Once I defined my needs and struggles to friends, that have hekped me a great deal --And the most difficult for me in my experience with death was: The loss of my future as I had planned it with my son as a part of it. --Regarding just Being There for someone dying, my advice would be: Human touch goes a long way. Someone holding a hand, not being afraid to shed a tear, and telling the person that you are deeply sorry for the pain they are experiencing --[My Son's] death taught me so much. I'd have others know how I: Have survived. There were many times during the first few years, I wondered if I would. And here I am, a bit wiser and probably more compassionate that I was before his death --The most confusing point of death for me was when: it was over and past for all of the "outsiders". I could not understand how life was continuing for people. The spring came, people played outdoors, how could this be possible, didn't thay know Chris had dies? --Regarding Humor in the death process, I'd just say that: Youe emotions are fried. They skip all around, and there is a fine line between profound sadness and profound joy, and we are out of whack with any reality. I laughed at my sons funeral with words that the priest spoke, and it felt so damn good. We are in essence, comparable to the mentally ill at that point, and cannot be judged for any reactions that we might have. --Not that it's a regret, but I would like to have better had time to: Of course, I would have liked to spend an evening with Chris before his accident, and tell him how much he enriched my life --But some things worked out so well... I'm SO GLAD I was able to: to spend 30 hours with Chris after his accident, and that he was allowed to peacefully pass to his next life while lying in my arms, in my=uch the same way that he entered life. It was a very profound moment for me. --One seemingly minor thing (yet important) which impressed me was when: This is a tough question, as there are so many instances that people do not understand. It was important to me that there be no underlying chaos during the passing of Chris's life. All of that could wait, I needed this to be a peaceful passing for my dear son --And exactly backwards: what we didn't make a big deal of, was: People all told me that I had to be strong for my surviving children, ages 7 and 13. That they needed me. I resented that, and I resented them. Tbey were the reason that I had to stay on, living this painful life, which was unbearable at times. I wasn't capable of living my life without confusion, how was I expected to assist these young boys in a manner in which they deserved. I also struggled with loving them. I loved all my children so much, and then Chris died, and it nearly destroyed me. I was not going to make that mistake again. Chris died without a moments warning, and so what could prevent that from happening to one of my other children, and so I was choosing to distance my heart form theirs. And the guilt that came with that, well, that is a wjole different story!! --I can get all teary-eyed just thinking about it all again when: I hear a story of the death of a child. I know all to well what is in store for the survivors. Sometimes it is a scent, a song, a spoken word, or just a need that brings thoughts of our loved one rushing back. I know, and I am ok wth this, that my son will be with me for the rest of my life. Sometimes causing sad thoughts, and sometimes happy thoughts, and I welcome the both with equal measure --In another dimension of Life where this all had never happened... I am unable to imagine a life to this day with Chris. Of course I try to imagine what Chris would be pursuing, and who his friends mught be, but it is difficult to imagine . --Sometimes I think: It's just not fair... I was a good person, Chris was a good person, bad things should only happen to bad people --It's sometimes so very difficult. I just wish I could Spend a day with Chris --When it really hit me... when I realized & acknowledged the death, I Became overwhelmed with pain, rage, anger, saddness......all of those awful emotions. I remember clearly, driving home from work, seven weeks after Chris's death. It came to me like a boly of lightening, Oh my God, Chris is Dead, and he will be forever. The thought nearly paralyzed me. It took me seven full weeks to realize it. That blew my mind, and yet the groundwork had slready been laid, I was forced to hold onto this realization for fear that the "outsiders" would be unable to understand this. --Regarding MEDICINE, DOCTORS, etc: Sadness that they do not offer much for the bereaved. Thet are in the business of saving lives, and so when those efforts fail, it is done deal. They only deal with the living, and not the recipients of a dying loved ones --Regarding CHURCHES, RELIGION, etc: I was very hurt by the lack of spiritual support from my Catholic Church" and it took me away from the cathoilc church --Religious Affiliation: Non denominational/Catholic --Regarding ONENESS of SPIRIT, etc: Death is certainly a spiritual experience. I do believe that religious beliefs make a difference in our recovery. My sisr=ter was an atheist at the time of my sons death. I do believe that it would have been more of a struggle if I thought that Chris just ended when he died, if I though that Chris became nothing more than a rotting corpse in the ground. I needed to hold onto the fact that Chris had gone to a better place. --Regarding MONEY: It didn't seem to play an important role --Regarding the FUNERAL: It was a beautiful time. A time at which there was a tremendous amount of love from family and friends. Draining to be sure, but spiritually beautiful --The weirdest part of it all to me was: the palnning of the funeral, as if we were planning a birthday party for our son, it was very surreal --SOME OF THE COMMON SIGNS OF DEATH : I am a medical person, I clearly recognized the signs --SOME OF THE COMMON STAGES OF GRIEF: Do not greive the death of a person until that person has actually passed. Mourning is better saved until after the death. Be alive with the person until that final breath is taken, and then allow the grieving to begin --RE: Visions from the 'Other Side': I don't recall this. My son was brain dead for 30 hours, and then we removed him fro the ventilator, and he died in our arms --RE: Near Death Experiences: no experience with this --How might you deal with yet unresolved issues from a death?: I have no unresolved issues, but I know that some people do. I believe the resolution can only come from within that persons hearts. We all make mistakes, but not out of a malicioousness. We make decisions baded on our experiences, and so we have to forgive ourselves, and realize that we had not had the experiences to teach us to handle things differently. We must forgive ourselves, and come to a peace in our hearts --If we were to visit one last conversation... I am not sure anything I could say would change anything. The reality is that I wanted to see and experience my son growing old, and I didn't. No words would change that reality --RE: After-death visits from our loved ones: I was stuggling on day, about six months following my sons death. I was asking Chris for a sign to help me cope. I was all alone at home, and compelling Chris for something, anything, I was desperate. As I walked past the ansswering maching, I noticed that it was blinking like crazy. That was odd. I pushed the play button, and was surprised when it rewound and rewound for s long time. When the messages began to play I was quite surprised to hear ver old messages, the first few were for Chris, from his friends, left about a year previous. The 5th message was from Chris. It was a quick simple, and yet very profound message. It simply said, "Hi mom, I'm having a great time up here, I love you" I froze. He had been in New Hampshire 6 months before his death and had left that message. There was no coincidence that I heard that message at the very moment of my desperate request to Chris to give me a sign. --Regarding Rights & Wishes of the Dying: Think first and formost of the dying person, and try to put your own fears aside. --Any thoughts about your own death?: I am not afraid of death, but more afraid of what my death will do to my surviving loved ones. When I die, I imagine I will be reunited with Chris, and that takes away a lot of the fear. --Any Coping Ritual or Event you invented / devised to help you cope: I struggled for years to be able to think of Chris and smile. Everytime I remembered a joyful moment of Chris's life, I was immediatly plunged into sadness about his death. There were times that I was sitting on the edge, and needed to fully imerge myself into sadness, and so I would play songs that would remaind me of his death, or read articles of his passing, and lose my mind in grief, but then I would emerge a bit stronger. "outsiders" were unable to understand this need --Any Coping Rituals or Events which have carried over into your life? I have gained a better respect for everyday things. Simple moments of joy, of communcations with my loved ones, as I now know that nothing is guaranteed, and that life nust be cherished every moment, as the moment may never come again --Any New Friends emerge in the shared grieving process of Death? I have gained and lost friendships as a result of my sons death. This I believe to be a natural progression of life - - - - - P e r s o n a l H i s t o r y - - - - - 1st Death event occurred in my life at: Mid-Life How'd I do? How well What Helped me most deal with death? Crying and Crying I needed support from other bereaved parents What Hindered me most in my dealing with death? Silence & Taboos people thinking that your life should return to "normal". Unrealistic expectations --As for reaching out helping others now as part of my healing process: I reach out to many newly bereaved people, to help them know that what they are feeling is "normal" thare were times when I believed that I was losing all touch with reality, and that was very frightening. I try to help newly bereaved people to not be so frightened - - - Comments on this Questionnaire & collection GuestBook - - - Any writing or reflecting about my sons death tends to make me a more informed person about just who I am, and I welcome the opportunity to learn more about my experiences, and hope that my answers will in turn help another struggling person ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ Sat Mar 24 01:34:56 2001 M65 in Rancho Cordova, CA =USA= Name: Ted Laurence Email: <Anim0n=at=pacbell.net> Web: http://zwap.to/Anim0n - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Found us by: [ Web Search: ] I was searching for info on "death wish" - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Prof/Studies: retired - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Recommended Reading-- Titles: Suicide and the Soul Recommended Reading-- Writers: James Hillman - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Most Significant Recent Death Exp was death of (Relation to You), yrs ago. Aged: - - - - - - - - - - - - - - T O P I C A L S - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - --Death Is: transition --That first time, how it happened was It was me...open-heart surgery at age 44, in 1982 --What I think my (USA) culture needs to better learn about death is: it is a passage --One gift for which I shall always be grateful is: the death of my ego --What was of most support to me in my experience with death was: internalization --Regarding just Being There for someone dying, my advice would be: persevere --[My Self (impending)'s] death taught me so much. I'd have others know how I: surrendered...accepted... --The most confusing point of death for me was when: I didn't know --Not that it's a regret, but I would like to have better had time to: die sooner --But some things worked out so well... I'm SO GLAD I was able to: surrender --In another dimension of Life where this all had never happened... The sign over the door to Hades reads: Abandon hope all ye who enter here....on the other side of that door is another sign which reads: Happiness dwells here (both in Latin, of course) --It's sometimes so very difficult. I just wish I could get on with it --Regarding MEDICINE, DOCTORS, etc: awe --Religious Affiliation: non-religious "Imagine all the people living for today, and no religion, too" John Lennon --Regarding ONENESS of SPIRIT, etc: right --The weirdest part of it all to me was: realizing I was dead --SOME OF THE COMMON SIGNS OF DEATH : fear, dread, nightmares --RE: Visions from the 'Other Side': "Descent to Heaven" Joseph Campbell --RE: After-death visits from our loved ones: I know that they were "forms" of loved ones, not my loved ones. Lex Hixon gave me this blessing years ago: May the Divine Mother in all Her forms, and as the Clear Light, continue to protect you and illumine you in all ways on all levels. --Any Coping Ritual or Event you invented / devised to help you cope: meditating "listening" "hearing" - - - - - P e r s o n a l H i s t o r y - - - - - 1st Death event occurred in my life at: Mid-Life How'd I do? A bit rough What Helped me most deal with death? Mystical Studies "Death is a festive occasion" Jung...."Death is a metaphor..." James Hillman What Hindered me most in my dealing with death? Fear of Death Enhancements: http://zwap.to/Anim0n ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ Fri Mar 23 18:31:11 2001 F40 in Dover, Delaware =Kent= - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Found us by: [ Web Search: ] I was on the web, thinking about death and dying so I looked it up. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Prof/Studies: Psychology/ Human Behavior - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - More personal info: I will be graduating with my BA degree in Human Behavior and I will continue on for my Masters in Transpersonal Studies. You are welcome to post this info. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Recommended Reading-- Titles: On Death and Dying Recommended Reading-- Writers: BY: Elizebeth Kubler-Ross - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Most Significant Recent Death Exp was death of Friend, 21 years ago. Cause of Death: car accident; Aged: 22. --Details: His death was sudden and unexpected so it came to a complete shock to me. I refused to believe that he was dead at first. I took his death very hard. However, he had come to me in two dreams after his death to assure me that he was fine. I was ok with his death after this. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - T O P I C A L S - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - --Death Is: letting go of the breath of life either quickly or slowly depending on the type of death expereince it is. I would also tell that being that death is just the begining of new life in a different form. --The first time I ever experienced someone's death, I was five years old. --That first time, how it happened was How it happened was...I was five years old and my friend and I (along with several others) were riding our bikes back and forth across the street. We tried to warn our friend but he wouldn't listen to us. He was run over by a truck and I saw his head completely smashed in by the tire. --The Most Vivid memory I have of this most recent death is: not wanting to believe he had actually died and his visiting me in my dreams. --What I think my (Kent) culture needs to better learn about death is: to allow more openness and acceptance as it is a natural part of life. --One gift for which I shall always be grateful is: for the dreamworld where those who pass over into spirit can visit us here in the physical relam. --What was of most support to me in my experience with death was: my belief. --And the most difficult for me in my experience with death was: never being able to have phsyical contact with them. --Regarding just Being There for someone dying, my advice would be: silence is golden and allow the dying one to speak if he/she wishes to. The eyes will tell all. --[My Friend's] death taught me so much. I'd have others know how I: was able to come to acceptance and understanding that life never really ends, just transforms. --Not that it's a regret, but I would like to have better had time to: Tell him how much he meant to me before his death. --But some things worked out so well... I'm SO GLAD I was able to: see him in my dreams. --I can get all teary-eyed just thinking about it all again when: I think about my own death, leaving my young children behind, for them I cry. --Sometimes I think: It's just not fair... such innocent children must leave our earth, yet I understand there is reason and purpose behind it all. --When it really hit me... when I realized & acknowledged the death, I I was deeply saddened at MY loss. --Regarding CHURCHES, RELIGION, etc: nothing to me. --Religious Affiliation: Past religious affiliation was Roman Catholic. I do not agree with organized religion, at least not for myself. --Regarding ONENESS of SPIRIT, etc: absoultely correct. There is a broader sense of spirit and connection to spirit during these times. --The weirdest part of it all to me was: seeing those we care about suffer. --SOME OF THE COMMON SIGNS OF DEATH : In and out of consiousness, talking to "others" in the room when those "others" are of the spiritworld, the last deep exhale of breath, the last... --RE: Visions from the 'Other Side': I've not attended anyones death at this stage, however, I do know of the visits during this time. --RE: Near Death Experiences: I wouldn't call what I experienced a near death experience, but I have had several "out of body" experiences that I understand as being much of the same feeling and sensation. --RE: After-death visits from our loved ones: The friend that I've been speaking of, Joe, came to see me in my dream and told me that everything was alright. That yes he was dead but he was fine. I remember this dream as if it had just happened to me, yet it's been 21 years since his death. I can't tell you how much of a difference this made in my understanding about the life and death process. --Regarding Rights & Wishes of the Dying: Respect how the person has lived their life and do as they has either writen or verablly stated their wishes to be. It should be as the person would want it to be. --Any thoughts about your own death?: Yes. As a matter of fact I've been thinking about my own death. It feels strange to think about one's own impending death. The only real concern I have about it is leaving my children and husband behind to live life without my physical presence. The "control" issue, I guess. I am not afraid to die. --Any Coping Ritual or Event you invented / devised to help you cope: I write poetry. - - - - - P e r s o n a l H i s t o r y - - - - - 1st Death event occurred in my life at: Very Young Child How'd I do? Well What Helped me most deal with death? My Belief System I am not sure, just because I believe in reincarnation, life eternal. Others not being willing to talk about death and dying. --As for reaching out helping others now as part of my healing process: I wrote poetry for those close to me. - - - Comments on this Questionnaire & collection GuestBook - - - I would like to thank you for this questionnaire. It is nice to have these types of things so that we are all more aware of eachothers thoughts and feelings. ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ Fri Mar 23 08:03:23 2001 F34 in Mexico,D.F., Distrito Federal =Mexico= - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Found us by: [ Teacher ] Altavista - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Prof/Studies: Psychologist and work like publisher - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Most Significant Recent Death Exp was death of Father, 28 yrs ago. Cause of Death: pancreatitis; Aged: 68. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - T O P I C A L S - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - --Death Is: End of life. --The first time I ever experienced someone's death, I didn't know what it was. --That first time, how it happened was How it happened was...my dad and I became very depressive, anorexic, and with all kind of emotional and physical diseases. --The Most Vivid memory I have of this most recent death is: loneliness. --What I think my (Mexico) culture needs to better learn about death is: that life does not finish with it. --One gift for which I shall always be grateful is: things my father tought me and what he gave me. --What was of most support to me in my experience with death was: Therapy. --And the most difficult for me in my experience with death was: that I wanted also to die. --Regarding just Being There for someone dying, my advice would be: Helping him with the dying process. --[My Father's] death taught me so much. I'd have others know how I: could help him. --The most confusing point of death for me was when: I couldn't handle it. --Not that it's a regret, but I would like to have better had time to: express him all my love and to let him go without any pain, regrets or bad feelings. --But some things worked out so well... I'm SO GLAD I was able to: know my last therapist. --I can get all teary-eyed just thinking about it all again when: I wished I could spend more time with him. --In another dimension of Life where this all had never happened... I would spend more time with him and all my life could be quite different. --Sometimes I think: It's just not fair... that he left me when I was so young. --When it really hit me... when I realized & acknowledged the death, I tried to understand it the best way I could. --Religious Affiliation: Christian. - - - - - P e r s o n a l H i s t o r y - - - - - 1st Death event occurred in my life at: Young Child How'd I do? Very Difficult What Helped me most deal with death? Mystical Studies What Hindered me most in my dealing with death? Crying and Crying ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ Thu Mar 22 11:49:19 2001 M20 in Cincinnati, Ohio =USA= Name: Tom B. Sheit Email: <yourmom=at=yourmom.com> - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Found us by: [ Class Project ] Prof/Studies: Psychology - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Most Significant Recent Death Exp was death of Friend, 7 ago. Cause of Death: Car accident; Aged: 13. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - T O P I C A L S - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - --Death Is: something we don't understand, and what we don't understand we fear and don't like. --The first time I ever experienced someone's death, I Hurt inside, but didn't show much emotion outside because i don't fear death and don't want people to have that view of me. --That first time, how it happened was Good friend was walking to school in 7th grade, and got hit by a truck while crossing a busy street. I was told later that day by the school counselor. --The Most Vivid memory I have of this most recent death is: not crying. --What I think my (USA) culture needs to better learn about death is: understanding of people who don't deal with it in the same way. --One gift for which I shall always be grateful is: I feel more enlightened by having someone close to me die. --What was of most support to me in my experience with death was: my parents. --And the most difficult for me in my experience with death was: other people's opinions. --[My Friend's] death taught me so much. I'd have others know how I: can cope with something very tragic and not let it be the questioning focal point of my life. --The most confusing point of death for me was when: people of different beliefs start preaching their case on what death is about. --It's sometimes so very difficult. I just wish I could drink more. --Religious Affiliation: christian. - - - - - P e r s o n a l H i s t o r y - - - - - 1st Death event occurred in my life at: Teen Ager How'd I do? Well What Helped me most deal with death? My Belief System What Hindered me most in my dealing with death? Fear of Death ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ Tue Mar 20 06:32:57 2001 F22 in lviv, =ukraine= Name: natalia Email: <zelena_mysha_ua=at=yahoo.com> - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Found us by: [ Web Search: ] by accident - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Prof/Studies: teacher - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Recommended Reading-- Titles: Gone with the wind, Star wars Recommended Reading-- Writers: any philosopher - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Most Significant Recent Death Exp was death of relative, 7 yrs ago. Cause of Death: road accident; Aged: 15. --Details: He was killed while riding a motorbike, by a drunk lorry driver. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - T O P I C A L S - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - --Death Is: the passing of the soul into another reality. --The first time I ever experienced someone's death, I didn't care much about it. --That first time, how it happened was How it happened was... It was my friend's grandfather and our neighbor. --The Most Vivid memory I have of this most recent death is: the 5-year-old sister of this boy taking flies away from his face with a carnation. --What I think my (ukraine) culture needs to better learn about death is: its naturalness. --One gift for which I shall always be grateful is: people's sympathies. --What was of most support to me in my experience with death was: books. --And the most difficult for me in my experience with death was: I could never talk to this person again. --Regarding just Being There for someone dying, my advice would be: try to talk to the deceased in your mind. --[My relative's] death taught me so much. I'd have others know how I: learned not to be afraid of Death. --The most confusing point of death for me was when: I had to switch to the past tenses speaking of the deceased. --Regarding Humor in the death process, I'd just say that: I am not dead yet, so I have the right to do so. --Not that it's a regret, but I would like to have better had time to: say that regrets are pointless. --But some things worked out so well... I'm SO GLAD I was able to: be serious for a moment and think of life. --One seemingly minor thing (yet important) which impressed me was when: the weather was so fine! --And exactly backwards: what we didn't make a big deal of, was: how the family could get over it. --I can get all teary-eyed just thinking about it all again when: never. --In another dimension of Life where this all had never happened... Not much. --Sometimes I think: It's just not fair... so many scoundrels live happily; why he? --It's sometimes so very difficult. I just wish I could forget it. --When it really hit me... when I realized & acknowledged the death, I tried to think about something else. --Regarding MEDICINE, DOCTORS, etc: acceptance. --Regarding CHURCHES, RELIGION, etc: distraction by rituals. --Religious Affiliation: christian --Regarding ONENESS of SPIRIT, etc: energy that can never disappear. --Regarding MONEY: it was unimportant. --Regarding the FUNERAL: some people come out of curiosity. --The weirdest part of it all to me was: forgetting all the deceased's vices. --SOME OF THE COMMON SIGNS OF DEATH : feeling of completedness of your life. --SOME OF THE COMMON STAGES OF GRIEF: there was not much grief in it: just a shock and meditations. --RE: Visions from the 'Other Side': I don't know about them. --RE: Near Death Experiences: a priest I used to know was brought back to life by his daughter and was very angry afterwards, as he felt so good! my schoolteacher was close to drowning, she had almost given up the struggle for life (she felt good too), but the thought of her mother made her go on. --How might you deal with yet unresolved issues from a death?: Nothing. --If we were to visit one last conversation... I'd say: "How are you there? We'll talk when we meet later". We'd have a good laugh over it! --RE: After-death visits from our loved ones: My uncle perished at 19. My Granny says she saw him a couple of days after, and heard his voice. He asked her to take care of my Mom (his younger sister). --Regarding Rights & Wishes of the Dying: It is a bit selfish to demand something before you die. But I would forbid my loved ones to wear mourning clothes, unless it's their usual style. --Any thoughts about your own death?: I'd like to die instantly, without doctors and hospitals. I wouldn't like to see my loved ones afterwards; I hate inflicting wounds. It is just a step to other reality. I am not afraid of it. --Any Coping Ritual or Event you invented / devised to help you cope: Reading. --Any Coping Rituals or Events which have carried over into your life? Nothing special. --Any New Friends emerge in the shared grieving process of Death? No. - - - - - P e r s o n a l H i s t o r y - - - - - 1st Death event occurred in my life at: Young Child How'd I do? Very Well What Helped me most deal with death? Ability to Forget What Hindered me most in my dealing with death? -none- close relations with the deceased --As for reaching out helping others now as part of my healing process: Just a talk, even about trifles. - - - Comments on this Questionnaire & collection GuestBook - - - Great for self-esteem. - - - Any other questions you feel we should have asked here? What are the vices of your ......... who died? Can you speak about them freely? Why/Why not? ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ Sun Mar 18 21:00:47 2001 F20 in Dallas, TX =USA= Name: Christina Email: <shimmer193=at=hotmail.com> - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Found us by: [ Stumbled on it ] I like to do surveys and I'm in psychology in school now, so I found it accidentally - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Prof/Studies: Journalism/Spanish - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Recommended Reading-- Titles: Bible - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Most Significant Recent Death Exp was death of GrandMother, 2 yrs ago. Cause of Death: old age; Aged: 92. --Details: She was sick for a long time, so we knew she was going to die soon and were just kind of waiting for a while - - - - - - - - - - - - - - T O P I C A L S - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - --Death Is: when a person is gone forever. Their souls leave thier bodies to go to another place and the body that is left behind is no longer useful, so we bury or burn it. The person's soul can go to heaven or to hell. --The first time I ever experienced someone's death, I cried alot and wondered why he had died. --That first time, how it happened was My uncle just all of a sudden died with no warning and no real reason. I had seen him a few days before. --The Most Vivid memory I have of this most recent death is: my father and how sad he was. --What I think my (USA) culture needs to better learn about death is: that it is a new beginning, not an ending. It isn't sad if the person is in a better place and life is just a preparation for death. --One gift for which I shall always be grateful is: the way my family handles death. --What was of most support to me in my experience with death was: knowing that God's hand is in everything and that He has a supreme plan and a reason for everything. --And the most difficult for me in my experience with death was: knowing I would not see them again until I'm in heaven --The most confusing point of death for me was when: I couldn't figure out why he had died. --Regarding Humor in the death process, I'd just say that: ? --But some things worked out so well... I'm SO GLAD I was able to: let them know I loved them. --When it really hit me... when I realized & acknowledged the death, I had to think for a long time about why it happened and tell myself that there was a reason, even if I didn't know it. --Religious Affiliation: Christian --Regarding ONENESS of SPIRIT, etc: completely blind. Those who do not know the truth have been blinded by it. When they die, they will be surprised. --Regarding MONEY: there was alot of confusion about who was suppossed to get what. --Regarding the FUNERAL: it was not as bad as I expected. --The weirdest part of it all to me was: seeing the body --SOME OF THE COMMON SIGNS OF DEATH : well, blood gushing out of a person's head from gunshot wound is a pretty good indication --RE: Visions from the 'Other Side': When my uncle died when I was 14, I didn't want to sleep alone because I had heard stories that sometimes people saw their dead relatives and I was afraid to see him. I knew I was his favorite niece so I figured he would visit me and I didn't see that as him visiting me, but as a ghost visiting me and I was afraid. --If we were to visit one last conversation... I think I would tell him about myself and ask if he was proud of where I've gotten myself. I would want him to think I'm smart and pretty like he did before he died. --Any thoughts about your own death?: I got in a bad car accident last fall and for some reason came out with only cuts and bruises even though most people would have been killed. It made me think alot and I realized that God has a plan for me, as for everyone else. He's not through with me yet, and when He is, I will die and if that is part of His plan, I can accept that. It is still hard because I think it is a basic human desire to live and a human quality to fear the unknown. Even though I know I will be with my Father in heaven, I am still afraid, even though I know I shouldn't be. I hope that I don't die until I'm ready, but whenever He takes me I'll go. --Any Coping Ritual or Event you invented / devised to help you cope: I read my Bible and prayed - - - - - P e r s o n a l H i s t o r y - - - - - 1st Death event occurred in my life at: Teen Ager How'd I do? A bit rough What Helped me most deal with death? My Belief System I knew he was a good Christian and went to heaven What Hindered me most in my dealing with death? Other: It was such a surprise and it just kind of happened- I was so shocked --As for reaching out helping others now as part of my healing process: I think listening is most important- listening and NOT talking back or consoling - - - Comments on this Questionnaire & collection GuestBook - - - it was interesting - - - Any other questions you feel we should have asked here? One other question- Is there something that you connect now with death that is just an ordinary thing to most people?- Whenever the phone rings, I think of death for a split second because my first experience with death was my aunt calling and telling us he was dead. I brought this up in a class where we were discussing death, and other people responded with like answers. ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ Sat Mar 17 21:54:23 2001 F23 in , == - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Found us by: [ Web Search: ] - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Most Significant Recent Death Exp was death of Best Friend, 5yrs ago. Cause of Death: car accident; Aged: 18. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - T O P I C A L S - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - --Death Is: The termination of a relationship with someone we care about. --The first time I ever experienced someone's death, I cried for weeks --That first time, how it happened was How it happened was...My best friend was killed in a car accident. --The Most Vivid memory I have of this most recent death is: going away to the college that my friend and I were going to together and she was no longer alive --What I think my () culture needs to better learn about death is: the importance of a relationship with Jesus Christ --One gift for which I shall always be grateful is: that I have a close relationship with my deceased friend's mother --What was of most support to me in my experience with death was: church friends new found friends at college --And the most difficult for me in my experience with death was: knowing that she should have been with me the weekend that she died and I cancelled plans with her so she went somewhere else where she was killed --[My Best Friend's] death taught me so much. I'd have others know how I: miss her so much --The most confusing point of death for me was when: the guy who was drunk and killed her, got only a month of jail time for his crime --Not that it's a regret, but I would like to have better had time to: tell my friend about Jesus and also how much I care about her --One seemingly minor thing (yet important) which impressed me was when: was seeing the wreckage of the car --I can get all teary-eyed just thinking about it all again when: whenever I try to talk about her --In another dimension of Life where this all had never happened... We would still be talking. She would be the only friend I have had since kindergarten till the present day that I still keep in touch with --Sometimes I think: It's just not fair... why her why not someone like me? --It's sometimes so very difficult. I just wish I could hear from her (in a dream, whatever) --Regarding CHURCHES, RELIGION, etc: support and prayers from people who knew my hurts --Religious Affiliation: Assemblies of God --Regarding the FUNERAL: seeing her bruised face in the casket --The weirdest part of it all to me was: getting mad at seeing certain people who didn't even know her at the funeral - - - - - P e r s o n a l H i s t o r y - - - - - 1st Death event occurred in my life at: Teen Ager How'd I do? A bit rough What Helped me most deal with death? Religion/Clergy What Hindered me most in my dealing with death? Guilt And also that she was needlessly killed by a drunk driver ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ Sat Mar 17 15:15:44 2001 Anonymous Guest in , == - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Found us by: [ Web Search: ] - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Most Significant Recent Death Exp was death of GrandMother, 3yrs ago. Cause of Death: old age; Aged: 79. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - T O P I C A L S - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - --Death Is: a natural painful event --The first time I ever experienced someone's death, I was very removed from the whole thing. More upset for living relatives --That first time, how it happened was How it happened was.my friend was killed by a drunk driver --The Most Vivid memory I have of this most recent death is: disbelief and anger --What was of most support to me in my experience with death was: my husband --And the most difficult for me in my experience with death was: feeling the pain of their family --Regarding just Being There for someone dying, my advice would be: best thing you could do for them and yourself --[My Friend's] death taught me so much. I'd have others know how I: always kept happy memories --The most confusing point of death for me was when: not expected and hard to believe --Not that it's a regret, but I would like to have better had time to: say goodbye or tell her not to go --But some things worked out so well... I'm SO GLAD I was able to: have a chance to know her --One seemingly minor thing (yet important) which impressed me was when: i went to the viewing --And exactly backwards: what we didn't make a big deal of, was: the funeral service --I can get all teary-eyed just thinking about it all again when: i go to their grave sites --Sometimes I think: It's just not fair... she was too young --When it really hit me... when I realized & acknowledged the death, I cry alot and reminisce --Religious Affiliation: roman catholic --Regarding MONEY: there wasn't very much for the funeral --Regarding the FUNERAL: how many peoples lifes she touched --The weirdest part of it all to me was: wishing it could have been some one else --If we were to visit one last conversation... i think she would be very curious about where everyone we used to work with ended up --Any Coping Ritual or Event you invented / devised to help you cope: i bring flowers to gravesite on the anniversary of her death and send a christmas card yearly to her family - - - - - P e r s o n a l H i s t o r y - - - - - 1st Death event occurred in my life at: Young Adult How'd I do? A bit rough What Helped me most deal with death? Passage of Time What Hindered me most in my dealing with death? Disbelief it could happen ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ Fri Mar 16 08:08:35 2001 M26 in atlanta, ga =us= - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Found us by: [ Web Search: ] Prof/Studies: kumar - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Recommended Reading-- Titles: The tibetian book of living and dying - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Most Significant Recent Death Exp was death of Uncle, 3 mos ago. Cause of Death: heart attack; Aged: 44. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - T O P I C A L S - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - --Death Is: Moving on --The first time I ever experienced someone's death, I had the desire to attain peace and compassion in this life and make Karma in accordance with the laws of nature --That first time, how it happened was How it happened was.My unce just died atthe age of 44.He had been meditating a lot for the past two years and had an extreme love for his Guru.His wish was to be in the realm of the masters.He was alone when it happened.i have never seen anyone die in front of my eyes.But i believe eberything lives on.There is no death,just moving on.Nothing is created or destroyed, just a change,like matter and energy --The Most Vivid memory I have of this most recent death is: Sadness and mourning, maybe a thought that it shouldnt have happened, people thinking it was not going to happen to them,then they got worried about their worldy chores and work and forgot what had happened, they were grieving and offered help to the immediate family at first instance, then forgot about it --What I think my (us) culture needs to better learn about death is: what follows it is what we do in our lives so we must not hurt feelings of others, sacrifice our whims for the right and know what our actions will bring for its us who will reap the rewards, the journey of our mind is a lonely one so what seems like our relations is an illusion for we die alone and move on alone.Only attainment we have is the Good we do.The only thing that moves on is our faith and the belief in the Guru who is with us always --One gift for which I shall always be grateful is: My faith in my Guru became more profound and i want to change my life m being less materialistic and learn to do Good in all actions try to be one with nature and my Guru --And the most difficult for me in my experience with death was: that life is nothing and then the cycle starts again --Regarding just Being There for someone dying, my advice would be: Try to thing of God or your Guru, for at that moment decides more what your next life will be or where the new beginning will bring,ask for forgiveness for what might have the wrongs u might have done. --[My Great GrandFather's] death taught me so much. I'd have others know how I: He said his Guru was had come to take him and he must move on but he had bought time to say Good bye to his children.the Gurus are there to guide in the times when one life ends even if they are not in the living form --Not that it's a regret, but I would like to have better had time to: Have talked to my uncle and been there when he was leaving --But some things worked out so well... I'm SO GLAD I was able to: Understand that we are blessed if we do right and have a clear concience and have our teachers and gurus who Guide us --And exactly backwards: what we didn't make a big deal of, was: His material possisions was the talk of the time everyone wanted to give advice on finances when all that was left here, still the people did not understand that its not going with them, they were looking for their gains in death --I can get all teary-eyed just thinking about it all again when: i dont, but i feel that that maybe that i should? --In another dimension of Life where this all had never happened... I would gain spiritual insight from him, get inspiration to to attain the love of my Gurs --Sometimes I think: It's just not fair... i think it is fair or not is up to the creator to decide because what we think does not matter,we just have to accept and try and work to be in the company of nature and God and find the bliss with being one with nature --It's sometimes so very difficult. I just wish I could sit in person with my Guru and just be with him, in his company, talk to him and see him smile --When it really hit me... when I realized & acknowledged the death, I That my uncles wish to be with the Guru had been fulfilled, he was happy where he was --Regarding MEDICINE, DOCTORS, etc: they are helpful, but they have blocked out death from their lives --Religious Affiliation: hindu --Regarding ONENESS of SPIRIT, etc: it moves on --Regarding MONEY: its not important what u have accumulated, like Alexander said on death that make sure my hands are out of my coffin when u have my funeral, so the world can see that i went empty handed --Regarding the FUNERAL: Everyone felt it was a reality for someone else and what happened should nt have but i feel who are we to judge? --If we were to visit one last conversation... where is he? Whats next? --Any thoughts about your own death?: yes. i would just pray that my guru accepts me on death - - - - - P e r s o n a l H i s t o r y - - - - - 1st Death event occurred in my life at: Young Adult How'd I do? Well What Helped me most deal with death? My Belief System I am not afraid of dying now, i know maybe ill attain something in this life to allow me to be with my masters and my Guru after death which i feel is more blissful than living What Hindered me most in my dealing with death? -none- ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ Fri Mar 16 06:32:55 2001 M51 in Knoxville, Tennessee =U.S.A.= standingwolf_us=at=yahoo.com - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Found us by: [ Web Search: ] Prof/Studies: Retired Disabled Veteran - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Recommended Reading-- Titles: The Birds Still Sing...... Recommended Reading-- Writers: Terry R. Pritchett(My own poetry) There seems to be another life that has emerged from within myself.... - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Most Significant Recent Death Exp was death of Friend, 33 yrs ago. Cause of Death: Gunshots ; Aged: 19. --Details: It was 4 of my friends and they were like brothers to me. Our ages were 19 to 21...... - - - - - - - - - - - - - - T O P I C A L S - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - --Death Is: The end of this world for every individual, then on to another.... --The first time I ever experienced someone's death, I fealt empty... --That first time, how it happened was How it happened was...close friends killed in combat: VietNam. I believe I experience death myself. I was near fatally shot, and said to be dead-then as sudden as it happened, I regained life's breath again. --The Most Vivid memory I have of this most recent death is: I was alone.... --What I think my (U.S.A.) culture needs to better learn about death is: Don't make such a show out of it.... --One gift for which I shall always be grateful is: I survived it, by the grace of God!!! --What was of most support to me in my experience with death was: God and Myself!!!! --And the most difficult for me in my experience with death was: Accepting it, which took nearly twenty years..... --Regarding just Being There for someone dying, my advice would be: Listen and learn. Don't make fruitless promises!!! --[My Friend's] death taught me so much. I'd have others know how I: Detest the show people put on, over someone already gone!!! --The most confusing point of death for me was when: You wonder why them, but at the same time your glad it's not you.... --Regarding Humor in the death process, I'd just say that: Didn't laugh!! --Not that it's a regret, but I would like to have better had time to: knock out our LT and move 300 meters. He also was killed that night. He was knew and thought he knew it all. He wouldn't take advise from seasoned combat soldiers-which we all were,instead he got most of us and his self killed. --But some things worked out so well... I'm SO GLAD I was able to: pick up the broken pieces and start over... --One seemingly minor thing (yet important) which impressed me was when: I saw where I was going.... --And exactly backwards: what we didn't make a big deal of, was: did it hurt alot? --I can get all teary-eyed just thinking about it all again when: Season's are hot and damp... --In another dimension of Life where this all had never happened... I can't say for sure, because it did happen.... --Sometimes I think: It's just not fair... we were all so young, with our hopes and dreams.... --It's sometimes so very difficult. I just wish I could Compleatly forget it, but I think that may take away from who I am and that would be worse... --When it really hit me... when I realized & acknowledged the death, I didn't want to know about... --Regarding MEDICINE, DOCTORS, etc: 5 of us alive..... --Regarding HOSPICE etc: I don't Know... --Regarding CHURCHES, RELIGION, etc: God meant everything! I'm not really a follower of organized churches. --Religious Affiliation: Follower of Christ!! --Regarding ONENESS of SPIRIT, etc: That the Lord holds the breath of life. --Regarding MONEY: When my dad died(I loved him very much) it was hard to show emotions and cry. My brothers,sister and step-brothers and sisters cried and followed the grand parade. Later they sued my mother for their part of the money and anything else they wanted. I didn't want none of it and didn't go to get any. My 1/2 brothers and sister wanted to share what they got, but I refused it. --Regarding the FUNERAL: It seem to be such a waste.... --The weirdest part of it all to me was: The long parades funerals do and block up traffic and make folks late.... --SOME OF THE COMMON SIGNS OF DEATH : Feelings--I knew my dad was going to die one week before he did.... --SOME OF THE COMMON STAGES OF GRIEF: Is to get away to think about it and write about it.... --RE: Visions from the 'Other Side': I pray thier souls were ready!!!! --RE: Near Death Experiences: The Night I left this world, I viewed a deep dark pit, with a huge glow at the bottom. I knew it was Hell and I called out to the Lord to spare me and I would make things right. He did and I did... He also took the fear of death away from me, so the next time I'll be looking up at him in Heaven..... --How might you deal with yet unresolved issues from a death?: I feel they know thier a part of me and always will be..... --If we were to visit one last conversation... That I miss them.... --RE: After-death visits from our loved ones: It has happen to me many times. Some have regrets, some reveal how they really felt about people and life.... --Regarding Rights & Wishes of the Dying: They might not like being put on display and cried over..... --Any thoughts about your own death?: Don't bury me under ground and forget the parade.... --Any Coping Ritual or Event you invented / devised to help you cope: Embracing each death and writing... --Any Coping Rituals or Events which have carried over into your life? Careful about what I say and to whom I say it. Continue to survive and find positive ways to deal with whatever... --Any New Friends emerge in the shared grieving process of Death? I have had new friends;however, it's hard for me to get close and really trust someone that close again.... - - - - - P e r s o n a l H i s t o r y - - - - - 1st Death event occurred in my life at: Teen Ager How'd I do? A bit rough What Helped me most deal with death? My Belief System What Hindered me most in my dealing with death? Fear of Death --As for reaching out helping others now as part of my healing process: I try to reach out to friends who lose their love ones, but I do it out of kindness.... - - - Comments on this Questionnaire & collection GuestBook - - - It was a positive experience, but it didn't change anything for me... - - - Any other questions you feel we should have asked here? Your questions were exact and fine. Also well thought out... ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ Mon Mar 12 12:20:00 2001 F36 in Eureka, CA =USA= - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Found us by: [ Web Search: ] google advanced search : &death ORdying, ORprocess - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Prof/Studies: social worker - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Most Significant Recent Death Exp was death of (Relation to You), yrs ago. Aged: --Details: currently my grandmother is 96. She is ill, but probably not going to die from this illness. It has brought the issue to the forefront for me however. My family still does not want to talk. I am now 36 and I have more knowledge of who I am and what I want. How do I help my grandmother die with peace and dignity and yet not drive my mother and her sister over some abyss? - - - - - - - - - - - - - - T O P I C A L S - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - --Death Is: leaving behind a specific self. Whatever happens next will be very different. We will no longer be who we are. We will probably cease to have perception and will. --The first time I ever experienced someone's death, I felt very numb. like I was suppose to cry, but I didn't have any tears. I felt loss for myself. but not sadness for their death. --That first time, how it happened was How it happened was...my Dad had ongoing health issues that included heart disease and diabetes. He had 4 or 5 heart attacks over a five year period, but he died of complications of his diabetes. I was away and left my mom to handle the situation without support. She sent my dad to a VA hospital over 100 miles away. He died alone. I still have regrets, but Iwas glad my mom didn't have the burden any more. He was emotionally abusive in his diminished state. --The Most Vivid memory I have of this most recent death is: my not feeling anything --What I think my (USA) culture needs to better learn about death is: how integrates into life. What is the role of death in life? How can we help those who are dying?. How can we help ourselves relate to them and to the process? --Regarding just Being There for someone dying, my advice would be: I need advice, I don't have any to give --The most confusing point of death for me was when: now, when I can see it coming. I can see she is scared, yet ready. My family wants to talk about the living part-where, how, with waht medical care. Important questions, but I want to talk about the "passing over" or dying part. How? with whom? with what medical care? --Regarding MEDICINE, DOCTORS, etc: Be sure to know what questions to ask, ask them, make decisions, and insist your decisions are carried out swiftly. Regret is much worse than death. --Religious Affiliation: investigatory during childhood and early adulthood. My family was not involved in church however. World War II convinced my parents that god was not what they had been taught "he" was. --Regarding ONENESS of SPIRIT, etc: like the process of a spirit leaving a body to go be with the vast body of unattached energy that powers our universe. --Regarding MONEY: there hasn't been enough money at issue to cause any ripples or problems --Regarding the FUNERAL: how impersonal it was to have some guy who did not know my dad saying things about him like he did. It was wierd. If I had my way, nobody who didn't know the person would ever do more than order flowers or arrange chairs (logistics) at a funeral I was involved in again. --SOME OF THE COMMON SIGNS OF DEATH : need more information --RE: Visions from the 'Other Side': while my grandmother was very ill, I know she had a visitor. I was not there, but my aunt watched her have along conversation with some young man. He kissed her hand in the old-fashioned way. My aunt did not tell me if their conversation had any depth or if it was merely "social." --Any Coping Ritual or Event you invented / devised to help you cope: I tend to take a leisurly almost tourist like drive home and enjoy memories of that person. - - - - - P e r s o n a l H i s t o r y - - - - - 1st Death event occurred in my life at: Young Adult How'd I do? Well What Helped me most deal with death? My Belief System What Hindered me most in my dealing with death? Guilt my family will not talk about these things - - - Comments on this Questionnaire & collection GuestBook - - - hmm. it has shown me I have a quite stoic relationship to death. My remorse tends to be about the loss of the person, and moreso the loss of opportunity for having a happier relationship with that person. Now it is final. That was the relationship I had, no "do-overs" ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ Sun Mar 11 22:23:42 2001 F45 in Laveen, AZ =USA= - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Found us by: [ Web Search: ] - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Most Significant Recent Death Exp was death of Mother, 4mos ago. Cause of Death: heart attack; Aged: 73. --Details: My mother was a type 2 diabetic for many years. Her heart and other body organs began showing stress and deterioation form the long term use of insulin. Nov 7 00 she was attempting to give herself a breathing treatment about 2am. My Dad checked on her she said she was fine. About 4am he noticed her machine was running, he went in she was DEAD. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - T O P I C A L S - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - --Death Is: Never to be again. The essence of that person is gone forever. --The first time I ever experienced someone's death, I Was a child of about three years of age. I remember being lifted up to view my brothers body. I remember vividly the red rose on his lapel. --That first time, how it happened was How it happened was...When I was three years of age my brother who was eleven at the time died. He died of pnemonia. --The Most Vivid memory I have of this most recent death is: My mother lying so still. All the sadness and pain. My father crying(never saw before). --What I think my (USA) culture needs to better learn about death is: Death is final. --One gift for which I shall always be grateful is: A new relationship with my father and a special closeness with my younger sister. --What was of most support to me in my experience with death was: And unplanned visit to a spritial healer. I was surprised. I generally lean toward science for explanations. --And the most difficult for me in my experience with death was: I will never talk to or see them again. --Regarding just Being There for someone dying, my advice would be: I was not there when my Mom died but I knew the end was near for her. Advice would be to visit as much as you can. Allow them to talk about what ever they like. My Mom talked alot about her love ones that went before her. There deaths including my Moms were only months apart. --[My --specify--'s] death taught me so much. I'd have others know how I: I have not learned anything from my Mothers death except grief. --The most confusing point of death for me was when: N/A --Regarding Humor in the death process, I'd just say that: Did not experiance laughter. --Not that it's a regret, but I would like to have better had time to: Convience my Mom to get out more and enjoy life. --But some things worked out so well... I'm SO GLAD I was able to: Talk with her the afternoon of her death. --One seemingly minor thing (yet important) which impressed me was when: Me and my sisters dress my Mom for viewing. Although I was there I only watched. --I can get all teary-eyed just thinking about it all again when: I watch any thing on TV dealing with death or the elderly being ill. --In another dimension of Life where this all had never happened... Sitting with my Mom and family members on a pourch looking out at the open fields filled with floweres. With mountains as a back drop. --Sometimes I think: It's just not fair... That my Mom should leave me. Keeping in mind I am 45 years of age. --It's sometimes so very difficult. I just wish I could Talk to her. Ask what happen --When it really hit me... when I realized & acknowledged the death, I Felt something heavy in my chest. --Regarding MEDICINE, DOCTORS, etc: HMO's do not spend money on the elderly!!! --Regarding CHURCHES, RELIGION, etc: For me organize religion means absolutly nothing. To my Mom and Dad they be;ived when they leave this old system it is good. And that they will be together again in a new system. --Religious Affiliation: none --Regarding MONEY: We did what ever was neccessay. --Regarding the FUNERAL: The lack of real feelings by the minister at the funeral. It was a closed casket, I felt as if I was not able to say my last goodbys. --SOME OF THE COMMON SIGNS OF DEATH : Great deal of conversation about there past. At times a look of serenity or contentment. The talk about loveones that have already died. --RE: Visions from the 'Other Side': A week prior to my Moms death she had what we called an episode(sugar level to low). This time was different she was confused about her surroundings. At the emegency room she was talking to me as if we were some where else. She kept asking me what kind of place are we in looking around as if she was looking at something. She told me later that she was with her sister(their dead), and she thought I was one of them. After this episode she seem somwhat content. --RE: Near Death Experiences: The next night after my Mothers death My Dad said my mom came to him and laid on his chest and said "I died of a heart attack". My Father feels that if he had not fallen back asleep he could some how have saved her. --How might you deal with yet unresolved issues from a death?: I don't know. --If we were to visit one last conversation... I would like to know what exactly killed my Mom. If there really is life after death. How to help my father deal with her loss. She knew better than anyone. --RE: After-death visits from our loved ones: I try desperately to visit my Mother in my dreams. I cannot understand why I have not. It would help me a great deal. I believe in the power of dreams. I ask myself why won't my supconscience allow me to see and talk with her? --Any thoughts about your own death?: There is nothing I want to now about my own death. --Any Coping Ritual or Event you invented / devised to help you cope: I'm trying dreams but have not succeeded. --Any New Friends emerge in the shared grieving process of Death? Only with my sister. - - - - - P e r s o n a l H i s t o r y - - - - - 1st Death event occurred in my life at: Very Young Child How'd I do? Well What Helped me most deal with death? Lack of Awareness --As for reaching out helping others now as part of my healing process: To let me talk as long as I wanted. - - - Comments on this Questionnaire & collection GuestBook - - - I could say what I felt without judgement. I was able to say or write the things I have been felling. ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ Sun Mar 11 15:51:16 2001 F18 in Jasper, In =United States= - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Found us by: [ Web Search: ] Prof/Studies: Assistant Teacher - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Most Significant Recent Death Exp was death of idol Public Figure, weeks ago. Cause of Death: a racing accident; Aged: 49. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - T O P I C A L S - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - --Death Is: no longer alive or able to communicated with real human beings --The first time I ever experienced someone's death, I was upset and had a great fear of dying --The Most Vivid memory I have of this most recent death is: the fear of dying and how easy it can happen --What was of most support to me in my experience with death was: family and close friends --And the most difficult for me in my experience with death was: the fear of dying --Regarding just Being There for someone dying, my advice would be: need to comfort close family and friends --[My relative's] death taught me so much. I'd have others know how I: have a fear of death --The most confusing point of death for me was when: what happens to you after you die --When it really hit me... when I realized & acknowledged the death, I felt more comfortable with it - - - - - P e r s o n a l H i s t o r y - - - - - 1st Death event occurred in my life at: Still has not How'd I do? How well What Helped me most deal with death? -none- What Hindered me most in my dealing with death? Fear of Death ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ Sun Mar 11 01:43:00 2001 M53 in Knoxville, TN =US= - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Found us by: [ Web Search: ] WebFerret search on "death" - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Prof/Studies: Manager - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Recommended Reading-- Titles: Slaughterhouse 5 Recommended Reading-- Writers: Kurt Vonnegut - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Most Significant Recent Death Exp was death of Wife, 1 year ago. Cause of Death: disease; Aged: 52. --Details: Terminal incurable disease - - - - - - - - - - - - - - T O P I C A L S - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - --Death Is: the cessation of all activities, and the obliteration of the self. --The first time I ever experienced someone's death, I saddened by their no longer being there. --That first time, how it happened was How it happened was...intestinal obstruction at 2.5 years. 5 minutes from dying. Despite young age, I was quite aware of all that was going on and its consequences. --The Most Vivid memory I have of this most recent death is: how real is was, and how nothing anyone could do would change what had happened. --What I think my (US) culture needs to better learn about death is: that it is final, there's no happy ending, what you do in your life is what you will leave behind you. All religion is pretentious nonsense and should be treated as such. --One gift for which I shall always be grateful is: not applicable. --What was of most support to me in my experience with death was: myself. --And the most difficult for me in my experience with death was: replacing what they filled. --Regarding just Being There for someone dying, my advice would be: Don't be phoney. --[My Wife's] death taught me so much. I'd have others know how I: Don't depend on others to the point where you handicap yourself. --The most confusing point of death for me was when: not applicable. --Regarding Humor in the death process, I'd just say that: not applicable. --Not that it's a regret, but I would like to have better had time to: not applicable. --But some things worked out so well... I'm SO GLAD I was able to: not applicable. --One seemingly minor thing (yet important) which impressed me was when: not applicable. --And exactly backwards: what we didn't make a big deal of, was: all the religious bullshit. --I can get all teary-eyed just thinking about it all again when: I have moved beyond that. --In another dimension of Life where this all had never happened... don't waste your time... --Sometimes I think: It's just not fair... but, the idea of "fair" is a human invention, whereas the universe is essentially ahuman. --It's sometimes so very difficult. I just wish I could no, it's not that difficult. --When it really hit me... when I realized & acknowledged the death, I not applicable. --Regarding MEDICINE, DOCTORS, etc: The best available resources were employed. --Regarding HOSPICE etc: Some were good, some were sickening leeches. --Regarding CHURCHES, RELIGION, etc: Nothing. It's a complete waste of time. --Religious Affiliation: None. --Regarding ONENESS of SPIRIT, etc: Nothing. Don't kid yourself. --Regarding MONEY: No impact. --Regarding the FUNERAL: Preposterous nonsense. --The weirdest part of it all to me was: Feeling as though I was the only one who had a handle on the reality of the situation. --SOME OF THE COMMON SIGNS OF DEATH : Lack of pulse. Everything else can be devious. --SOME OF THE COMMON STAGES OF GRIEF: When they're dead, that's it, get on with life. --RE: Visions from the 'Other Side': These indicate the breakdown of the electrochemical processes of the brain. --RE: Near Death Experiences: Once again, these indicate the breakdown of the electrochemical processes of the brain, you don't get many "near death" experiences from people that have been beheaded. --How might you deal with yet unresolved issues from a death?: Too late to resolve, just let them go. --If we were to visit one last conversation... Nothing different than what I actually said. --RE: After-death visits from our loved ones: Just silly dreams. --Regarding Rights & Wishes of the Dying: When I say "pull the plug!" that's what I mean! Hence my will. --Any thoughts about your own death?: I might die while typing this. And, I know that would be the end of my consciousness, that I would cease to exist, and I would be right back where I was before I was conceived, i.e., nothing. --Any Coping Ritual or Event you invented / devised to help you cope: None. --Any Coping Rituals or Events which have carried over into your life? Not applicable. --Any New Friends emerge in the shared grieving process of Death? None. But, some new awareness of persons not to trust, especially those who are religious. - - - - - P e r s o n a l H i s t o r y - - - - - 1st Death event occurred in my life at: Very Young Child How'd I do? Very Well What Helped me most deal with death? Other: The "other" was just logic and reality, this is it. What Hindered me most in my dealing with death? Religion/Clergy Society's current incarnations of superstition and ignorance --As for reaching out helping others now as part of my healing process: I helped those that needed it in substantial ways, but didn't delve into phoney superstitious sweetness. - - - Comments on this Questionnaire & collection GuestBook - - - Fine. Just a chance to reiterate what I know. - - - Any other questions you feel we should have asked here? Will get back to you. ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ Sat Mar 10 19:22:21 2001 F48 in Sarver, PA =USA= - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Found us by: [ Hospice ] via link while researching hospice topics - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Prof/Studies: hospice nurse - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Most Significant Recent Death Exp was death of GrandFather, 27 yrs ago. Cause of Death: post MI; Aged: 76. --Details: My grandfather died at home in his bed through the night--he was found by my grandmother in the AM. I (and some other family members) had a wonderful visit with him that evening before he went to bed, and I was able to see him prior to removal of his body by the funeral home. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - T O P I C A L S - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - --Death Is: A final journey that is very individual. If this process is allowed to proceed without major interference, the essence of who we are is preserved through our final breath. --The first time I ever experienced someone's death, I was more surprised than anything else, because of the wonderful visit I had with him the night before. He seemed like the grandfather I knew prior to the heart attack--full of energy and happy just to be visiting with family. --That first time, how it happened was How it happened was...A friend was killed in Viet Nam. The news of his death was stunning; at first I did not believe it was true--figured it was just another small town sensational rumor. --The Most Vivid memory I have of this most recent death is: the myriad of unique responses my grandfather's death provoked. Everyone responded differently. --What I think my (USA) culture needs to better learn about death is: part of the continuim of life. It's inevitable! --One gift for which I shall always be grateful is: --As a hospice nurse, I have witnessed / experienced / received many gifts through Death. The greatest gift I receive from my hospice work is ongoing renewal and sense of awe at the love and strength I witness each day. --What was of most support to me in my experience with death was: my faith. --And the most difficult for me in my experience with death was: fear that they may have suffered physically in the process of dying. --Regarding just Being There for someone dying, my advice would be: Quiet verbal reassurance of your presence and that you will be OK after their death; gentle stroking; granting the person permission to leave. --Regarding Humor in the death process, I'd just say that: laughing is an invaluable emotional release for me. --But some things worked out so well... I'm SO GLAD I was able to: see my grandfather at home in his bed with his favorite quilt (my sister and I had given him as a gift) before he was taken away by the funeral home director. --One seemingly minor thing (yet important) which impressed me was when: When I asked my mother how she knew for sure my grandfather was dead and she answered that he lost bladder control. I was shocked at her answer because I didn't know that happened, then I wondered (and asked her), how did she know that? In retrospect, I'm amazed that I needed to ask how she knew he was dead, but he really didn't look dead to me--he looked like he was sleeping peacefully--and I had never really given a moment's thought to the actual physical process of shutting down. As a hospice nurse, this many years later, I am still asked by family members how I know for sure the patient is dead. Some of these people have witnessed a very long dying process, but still ask the question at the time of death. I think it is momentary disbelief that death has actually occurred. --I can get all teary-eyed just thinking about it all again when: a memory surfaces (triggered by almost anything!)when I'm not expecting it. It feels like I'm back in "real time" with my early sense of loss and grief, but it also feels good and peaceful because the positive memories and associations with that relationship feel more real as well. --It's sometimes so very difficult. I just wish I could experience the release from pain and suffering that I believe death offers. --When it really hit me... when I realized & acknowledged the death, I realized why I coped so well at the time--my shock and denial protected me from falling apart and allowed me to deal with the pain of profound loss in doses I could handle. --Regarding MEDICINE, DOCTORS, etc: distrust --Regarding CHURCHES, RELIGION, etc: a framework of comfort and support. --Religious Affiliation: born again Christian / Catholic --Regarding ONENESS of SPIRIT, etc: absolutely accurate. --Regarding the FUNERAL: My grandfather would not have cared about the masses of flowers, but would have loved talking with all of his family and friends. --The weirdest part of it all to me was: an awareness that life goes on around us regardless of how profound our personal sense of loss may be. --SOME OF THE COMMON SIGNS OF DEATH : decreased oral intake; increased withdrawal/decreased response to the world around them; mottling; internal/external body temp. fluctuations; apnea; inability to swallow; audible oral secretions and last, but not least, HOW VERY LONG THE ACTUAL DYING PROCESS CAN TAKE! --RE: Visions from the 'Other Side': I don't know about my grandfather's experience, but as a hospice nurse I have witnessed this phenomena so many times that I am greatly comforted by it for my patients. It makes me feel confident of their safe, comfortable passage and enables me to initiate closure of my own with them. --How might you deal with yet unresolved issues from a death?: As the saying goes, death ends a life, but not a relationship, so issues CAN be resolved after death; however, I believe that they are easier to resolve with the living, so I try to live each day with that in mind. --Regarding Rights & Wishes of the Dying: I am a single, 48 year old parent of 4 children and have spoken with my children very openly, clearly, specifically and OFTEN about my wishes! The last time I did so, my 27 yr. old son joking replied, "Mom, you better hope you don't break an arm, because I'm convinced I can't agree to intervention!" I used the occassion to state again that I have witnessed too many patients and families agonize regarding available interventions in times of crisis; I want my children to feel confident that they are respecting my wishes if they should one day need to make choices for me. --Any thoughts about your own death?: Like everyone else in the world, I hope my death is quick and painless in my sleep! If that doesn't happen, I hope I have a hospice nurse (like me!) managing my care! - - - - - P e r s o n a l H i s t o r y - - - - - 1st Death event occurred in my life at: Teen Ager How'd I do? Adequate What Helped me most deal with death? Denial What Hindered me most in my dealing with death? Denial ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ Fri Mar 9 10:10:22 2001 F47 in Falls Church, Virginia =USA= - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Found us by: [ Hospice ] Prof/Studies: working on MSW - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Most Significant Recent Death Exp was death of Son, 13 yrs ago. Cause of Death: birth defects (Trisomy 13); Aged: 2 days. --Details: Actually, he was the second of my sons to die. My first son had died a little over a year prior to this one at 40 days after birth, also from heart defects (heart). - - - - - - - - - - - - - - T O P I C A L S - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - --Death Is: one of those transitional, hang-out-in-the-hallway, unknowable places; a not being here, but not knowing where we will be --The first time I ever experienced someone's death, I pretty much didn't have a clue what was going on; just knew my grandfather looked like he was asleep in the coffin and everyone else (except me -- so did that mean there was something wrong with me???) was crying, and I wouldn't get to see him or be with him anymore --That first time, how it happened was How it happened was...my grandfather died from his second heart attack; he was 60 years old. --The Most Vivid memory I have of this most recent death is: the deaths of my sons changed my life and life directions radically; also, I realized I had gotten a glimmer of what it meant to be unconditionally loving --What I think my (USA) culture needs to better learn about death is: just about everything! how much it can impact on us, how it doesn't take just a few days to get over, how incredibly strong our emotions are, and on and on; you name it, I think we stink at "doing Death" (we don't even like saying that word!!) --One gift for which I shall always be grateful is: that I had the opportunity to know my sons, even if for only a short time, to look at them and hold them and know that they would be taken care of by a Being much Greater than myself --What was of most support to me in my experience with death was: friends and the MIS support group, without a doubt --And the most difficult for me in my experience with death was: it just didn't make any sense -- that a baby should die; had a great deal of difficulty believing I was not somehow to blame --Regarding just Being There for someone dying, my advice would be: just sit and listen; you don't need to say anything except offer your unconditional presence --[My Son's] death taught me so much. I'd have others know how I: got through it and didn't spend the rest of my life feeling in pain and despair; that there is a light at the end of the tunnel --The most confusing point of death for me was when: no one would talke with me about what was happening --Regarding Humor in the death process, I'd just say that: it was Very Normal (but it sure didn't feel like that then)! --Not that it's a regret, but I would like to have better had time to: hold them more, be with them more (they both spent so much time in hospitals, hooked up to all sorts of tubes and monitors) --But some things worked out so well... I'm SO GLAD I was able to: reach out when I most needed it --One seemingly minor thing (yet important) which impressed me was when: my first son sighed a gentle sigh when they laid him in my arms for the last time --And exactly backwards: what we didn't make a big deal of, was: thinking we needed to know all the exact details of why and how; they were important, but they never could really answer the ultimate "Why?" question --I can get all teary-eyed just thinking about it all again when: I see some movie or read some story about a baby or mother's death --In another dimension of Life where this all had never happened... Wow, well I guess chances are greater that I would still be married to my children's father, plus I'm not sure my daughter would be here if the boys had lived (I had her about a year after my second son's death) --Sometimes I think: It's just not fair... Oh, well, I always think it's unfair when infants or children die --It's sometimes so very difficult. I just wish I could actually, it no longer feels difficult; for the most part, I didn't "wish" I did, I just did! --When it really hit me... when I realized & acknowledged the death, I cried and cried and cried and cried and cried ........... --Regarding MEDICINE, DOCTORS, etc: some good ones (docs, nurses, etc.) and some not-so-good ones; some could be present and others just didn't know what to do with themselves! --Regarding CHURCHES, RELIGION, etc: didn't do and don't do organized religion; do do spirituality, particularly spirituality based on the 12-step program believes and it is and was VERY IMPORTANT to me --Religious Affiliation: past -- Congregational, Unity --Regarding ONENESS of SPIRIT, etc: right on --Regarding MONEY: my two sons cost a fortune in hospital bills, and although most it was covered by insurance, it was a long time before the insurance company paid the bills and I kept getting the collection phone calls! Very Painful! --Regarding the FUNERAL: people were there, but I couldn't tell you who now --The weirdest part of it all to me was: the basic fact that it was happening at all --SOME OF THE COMMON STAGES OF GRIEF: it takes a long time and you need to be very gentle with yourself and find people who can be supportive through it --RE: Visions from the 'Other Side': no awareness --If we were to visit one last conversation... Actually, I sort of did that. When my first son would have been 5 years of age, I wrote and published a short article in Bereavement magazine; it was a very cleansing, healing process and brought some additional closure to both my son's deaths --Regarding Rights & Wishes of the Dying: I believe the dying should have what they desire -- i.e., if someone wants to be cremated, then cremate, don't bury! I also believe if someone feels they can't live with incredible pain, who are we to decide they should hang around? --Any thoughts about your own death?: I just want to know that my loved ones are with me and around me, seeing me off on my transition --Any New Friends emerge in the shared grieving process of Death? I definitely lost some friends who didn't know how to handle the grief, and I found a whole bunch of new people with whom I could connect - - - - - P e r s o n a l H i s t o r y - - - - - 1st Death event occurred in my life at: Young Child How'd I do? Adequate What Helped me most deal with death? Lack of Awareness At age 10, I pretty much didn't get what it was all about. What Hindered me most in my dealing with death? Lack of Awareness Don't recall much of anyone talking about it either. --As for reaching out helping others now as part of my healing process: Co-facilitated the MIS grief support group for 4 years after my daughter's birth; great, great experience - - - Comments on this Questionnaire & collection GuestBook - - - very helpful for clarification purposes ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ Fri Mar 9 08:35:13 2001 F14 in redding, ca =usa= Name: keshia Email: <Foxy_2214=at=yahoo.com> - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Found us by: [ Friend ] my friend told me how and when she was going to die.I wanted to know when i was going to die too. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Prof/Studies: none - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Most Significant Recent Death Exp was death of Great GrandMother, 1 ago. Cause of Death: old age; Aged: 98. --Details: she died in here sleep - - - - - - - - - - - - - - T O P I C A L S - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - --Death Is: i was not afrid --The first time I ever experienced someone's death, I when i was 3 --That first time, how it happened was How it happened was...a girl tryed to hit me with her car. --The Most Vivid memory I have of this most recent death is: crying at the funreral --What I think my (usa) culture needs to better learn about death is: not to be afraid ofit --One gift for which I shall always be grateful is: i got money --What was of most support to me in my experience with death was: my friend katie --And the most difficult for me in my experience with death was: my great grand mother --Regarding just Being There for someone dying, my advice would be: justine - - - - - P e r s o n a l H i s t o r y - - - - - 1st Death event occurred in my life at: Teen Ager How'd I do? Well What Helped me most deal with death? Friends' Sensitivities What Hindered me most in my dealing with death? Fear of Death ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ Fri Mar 9 04:48:01 2001 F23 in , kansas == - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Found us by: [ Web Search: ] - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Most Significant Recent Death Exp was death of Father, 1.5 ago. Cause of Death: heart attack; Aged: 53. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - T O P I C A L S - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - --Death Is: when you will never see a person again --The first time I ever experienced someone's death, I felt horrible --That first time, how it happened was How it happened was...my grandmother died --The Most Vivid memory I have of this most recent death is: watching my father die --What I think my () culture needs to better learn about death is: it effects people the rest of thier lives when a loved one dies...not just a few days or years afterwards --One gift for which I shall always be grateful is: that one day i, too, will die --What was of most support to me in my experience with death was: myself --And the most difficult for me in my experience with death was: never being able to see that person again --Regarding just Being There for someone dying, my advice would be: make sure you don't hesitate in getting them to the hospital during a heart attack --[My Father's] death taught me so much. I'd have others know how I: was stupid in thinking he wuold be alright --The most confusing point of death for me was when: the dr. told me my father was dead --Not that it's a regret, but I would like to have better had time to: not listened to my father when he said 'it is nothing' and said he'd be alright --In another dimension of Life where this all had never happened... i would be happy --It's sometimes so very difficult. I just wish I could die --Regarding MEDICINE, DOCTORS, etc: contempt...i heard them laughing when they had my father in the emergency room --Regarding CHURCHES, RELIGION, etc: nothing --Religious Affiliation: none --Regarding the FUNERAL: sad --The weirdest part of it all to me was: being there --How might you deal with yet unresolved issues from a death?: i would have liked to take my father to the hospital sooner...but he acted like his heart attack was no big deal...and at the time i didn't know what was happening --If we were to visit one last conversation... i'd tell my father i loved him and ask for his forgiveness for letting him down by not taking him to the hospital --RE: After-death visits from our loved ones: i had a dream once that my father bought me a volkswagen bug that was painted all over with skull and decorated inside with skulls --Any thoughts about your own death?: i can't wait --Any New Friends emerge in the shared grieving process of Death? no - - - - - P e r s o n a l H i s t o r y - - - - - 1st Death event occurred in my life at: Very Young Child How'd I do? Very Well What Helped me most deal with death? Family's Sensitivities What Hindered me most in my dealing with death? Helping Other People cope ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ Fri Mar 9 00:52:51 2001 M49 in Auckland, =New Zealand= Name: Anthony Swain Email: <english-boy=at=zfree.co.nz> - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Found us by: [ Web Search: ] Prof/Studies: Health worker - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Recommended Reading-- Titles: Death and dying. Life after Death Recommended Reading-- Writers: Elizabeth Kubler Ross. Dr Moody - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Most Significant Recent Death Exp was death of Mother, 10 yrs ago. Cause of Death: Cancer; Aged: 69. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - T O P I C A L S - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - --Death Is: The cessation of the existence in the material world, of the biological form we call a body. --The first time I ever experienced someone's death, I was shocked and numbed and just could not understand it. (I was a child). I kept thinking they would come back again after a short time. --That first time, how it happened was How it happened was...My father commited suicide. --The Most Vivid memory I have of this most recent death is: The fact that I just would not believe it had happened and that I felt very isolated and alone, even though I was one of a family of seven, going through the process --What I think my (New Zealand) culture needs to better learn about death is: That we should not isolate ourselves from the dead person and not "sanitise" the burial ceremony. --One gift for which I shall always be grateful is: My dying mother was very open with me and when she told me she loved me, it seemed to carry more significance than when she was alive. It seemed to have a special quality of honesty about it. --What was of most support to me in my experience with death was: Having family around me and long, long walks alone with my thoughts (and my dying mothers dog) --And the most difficult for me in my experience with death was: Their suffering and my own belief that I would never see them again --Regarding just Being There for someone dying, my advice would be: Be open to anything they may want to say and let them know this. --[My Mother's] death taught me so much. I'd have others know how I: felt extreme guilt when she died, for my misbehaviour in my teens, even though it was so long ago. I think this was a natural process and later on focussed on the really good aspects of our relationship --The most confusing point of death for me was when: We had an after funeral tea at my sisters house and everyone just seemed to be trying to act as if nothing had happened. That really threw me out --Regarding Humor in the death process, I'd just say that: I did not feel this way. --Not that it's a regret, but I would like to have better had time to: spend some more time with my Mum, as I had emigrated to another country. Those lost years were hard to accept. --One seemingly minor thing (yet important) which impressed me was when: Having a cup of tea after my Mum had just died (honest) --I can get all teary-eyed just thinking about it all again when: I focus on some aspect of my Mum, such as her love of music, and I hear something she liked. --In another dimension of Life where this all had never happened... I do not do this --Sometimes I think: It's just not fair... Why did she have to die at this age (69). I always thought she would live into her nineties. --It's sometimes so very difficult. I just wish I could It does not get that difficult now --When it really hit me... when I realized & acknowledged the death, I actually felt some relief at this ackowledgement --Regarding MEDICINE, DOCTORS, etc: a realisation that we place too much weight on the medical community and sometimes they are just as helpless as we are. --Regarding HOSPICE etc: No hospice care involved --Regarding CHURCHES, RELIGION, etc: Having the very good support of my mothers priest. He was excellent. --Religious Affiliation: Past was catholic. Now, spiritual with no religious affiliation --Regarding ONENESS of SPIRIT, etc: like a connection with the universe that transcends all human belief systems and has a common thread with all life in the universe --Regarding MONEY: It did not. --Regarding the FUNERAL: It followed a prescribed pattern that typified a Western funeral. --The weirdest part of it all to me was: A sort of inner strength that come over me before the death, when, on my way to England, I felt like a jelly bean. I do not know where this came from. --SOME OF THE COMMON SIGNS OF DEATH : A detachment from their surroundings and lack of interest in the external world. A need to "put things right" with family members. Inability to control thier bodily functions may signal end of family involvement with care due to embarassment and feelings of shame --SOME OF THE COMMON STAGES OF GRIEF: talking about them and being aware of them was a real bonus and definately helped. --RE: Visions from the 'Other Side': I had no awareness of this --How might you deal with yet unresolved issues from a death?: I have some unresolved issues around the past of the family and my Mum's relationship with my father. I don't know if there is anyone who can actually help me with these issues. I have questioned my eldest sister but she cannot help me very much. --If we were to visit one last conversation... I would tell my mother that she was a wonderful person who gave me some great teachings in life and some excellent values, which I will always carry with me. --RE: After-death visits from our loved ones: My mother often came to me in dreams, especially when i was going through the guilt phase. I also get strong feelings sometimes that she is close to me and I get shivery when this happens. --Regarding Rights & Wishes of the Dying: I have not given this consideration --Any thoughts about your own death?: I am very scared of dying and think about it quite a lot lately. --Any Coping Ritual or Event you invented / devised to help you cope: I wrote a letter to my dead Mother (on the computer), when I felt guilty about my teenage years and expleined to her how and why I was feeling like I was --Any Coping Rituals or Events which have carried over into your life? I have, in my job, experienced death in families and I always make a point of staying open for the dying person, or family member, if they want to talk about anything related to the experience --Any New Friends emerge in the shared grieving process of Death? Not really, I returned to my home overseas after the death. - - - - - P e r s o n a l H i s t o r y - - - - - 1st Death event occurred in my life at: Young Child How'd I do? Very Difficult What Helped me most deal with death? Talking to People sharing the loos with someone who had had a similar experience What Hindered me most in my dealing with death? Silence & Taboos was a child when it happened. No-one seemed to think it important to explain what and why it had happened. --As for reaching out helping others now as part of my healing process: I just wanted someone to listen to me and to let me be alone when I wanted to be. I was also able to help my wife when she lost her brother. - - - Comments on this Questionnaire & collection GuestBook - - - It was very useful to remember the feelings and happenings that were going on at the time and that you did not give much thought to. It has been vey helpful in that respect. ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ Thu Mar 8 12:06:57 2001 F23 in Roseau, Minnesota =US= - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Found us by: [ Class Project ] - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Most Significant Recent Death Exp was death of Friend, 6 yrs ago. Cause of Death: accidental fire; Aged: 22. --Details: four people our of 9 were killed in an accidental fire while hunting, the ages of the deceased 22,22, 8, 34 - - - - - - - - - - - - - - T O P I C A L S - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - --Death Is: enevitable, final --The first time I ever experienced someone's death, I was unaware, --That first time, how it happened was How it happened was...grandmother died of cancer --The Most Vivid memory I have of this most recent death is: the wake --What I think my (US) culture needs to better learn about death is: That it should not be kept a secret even from children --One gift for which I shall always be grateful is: the great bonding of the people left behind --What was of most support to me in my experience with death was: friends --And the most difficult for me in my experience with death was: The fact that they are gone and will be missed - - - - - P e r s o n a l H i s t o r y - - - - - 1st Death event occurred in my life at: Young Child How'd I do? Very Well What Helped me most deal with death? People's Stories, etc. the funeral What Hindered me most in my dealing with death? Silence & Taboos ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ Wed Mar 7 17:02:32 2001 F21 in San Dimas, California =United States= - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Found us by: [ Web Search: ] went to the psychology catagory on Yahoo and then went to experiments - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Prof/Studies: Sales Associate for Lane Bryant - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Most Significant Recent Death Exp was death of (Relation to You), yrs ago. Aged: - - - - - - - - - - - - - - T O P I C A L S - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - --That first time, how it happened was How it happened was my grandfather was suffering from Alzeheimers and eventually his body gave up. --RE: Visions from the 'Other Side': yes, my grandmother informed me while she was dying that she saw my dead aunt and her mother and they were telling her that they were waiting for her. --RE: Near Death Experiences: There was a time in my life where I almost drowned and I remember seeing a light, but a few seconds later, or at least it felt like a few seconds, I heard people talking over me and asking if they should give me CPR. That was kind of a near death experience, but I never saw an angle or anything. I think if I would see an angle and they left the decision up to me on whether I was ready to go or not, I would have to say no because if I have a choice, then I think there is something on Earth that my soul hasn't felt that its finished yet so I would need to finish that. --How might you deal with yet unresolved issues from a death?: I really don't have any resolved issues, I guess I just figure they are happy right now and anything I may not have said before they died they already can here because they are all around me, so really don't have any unresolved issues. --If we were to visit one last conversation... I hope that they are as happy as I think they are. --RE: After-death visits from our loved ones: I have seen my grandfather in a dream; it was when I was going through a rough time and although he didn't say anything to me in the dream, when I woke up I had a sense of peace, I think because I felt that he was watching over me and now I knew it so I felt that whatever I was stressing about would be okay because he was watching me. --Regarding Rights & Wishes of the Dying: I think my possessions and my loved ones should always be taken care of. --Any thoughts about your own death?: I think that I will die when I am supposed to die, if that is tomorrow, then i think there is a reason it is tomorrow, and i can understand that, that may hurt some people, but I hope they understand that I am content with dying whenever because I think it is for the right reasons. --Any Coping Ritual or Event you invented / devised to help you cope: I write in my journal. --Any Coping Rituals or Events which have carried over into your life? I feel taht writing in my journal and every once in awhile meditating really clears my head and allows me to live happily day to day. --Any New Friends emerge in the shared grieving process of Death? After my mother's mom died, even though we were close before, we became closer because we realized how important we are to one another. - - - - - P e r s o n a l H i s t o r y - - - - - 1st Death event occurred in my life at: Teen Ager How'd I do? Well What Helped me most deal with death? Family's Sensitivities I figure that my grandfather or anyone else in pain should go to a happier place and not be in pain anymore. What Hindered me most in my dealing with death? Fear of Death I am not so much now, but when I first delt with death I was afraid of it so I felt sad that my grandfather had to go through it. Although this is true, I am fine with death now and i think he is happier and better off. --As for reaching out helping others now as part of my healing process: Being able to talk freely about my feelings of death without strange looks from others because they don't agree with my position. - - - Comments on this Questionnaire & collection GuestBook - - - I think the questionnaire is interesting and helps put people's thoughts together about death and their own morality. - - - Any other questions you feel we should have asked here? No. Enhancements: No. ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ Wed Mar 7 15:45:42 2001 M25 in Muenster, =Germany= Name: Kevin Email: <kevin=at=uni-muenster.de> - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Found us by: [ Web Search: ] psychological experiments - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Prof/Studies: Physicist - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Most Significant Recent Death Exp was death of GrandMother, 5 ago. Cause of Death: old age; Aged: 75. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - T O P I C A L S - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - --Death Is: something final. A loss of someone. A mystery and the source of the deepest questions that we ask ourselves. --The first time I ever experienced someone's death, I did not quite understand at first. --That first time, how it happened was When I was in Camp with the boyscouts, a fellow scout got killed in a traffic accident. I didn't know the victim, but we talked a lot with our leaders and priest. --The Most Vivid memory I have of this most recent death is: solemnity --What I think my (Germany) culture needs to better learn about death is: it is a part of life. REALLY! --One gift for which I shall always be grateful is: the realization of my own mortality --What was of most support to me in my experience with death was: people just being there (to comfort me and for me to comfort them) --And the most difficult for me in my experience with death was: realizing that I will never see that person again. --The most confusing point of death for me was when: I realized the world had changed a bit. --Regarding Humor in the death process, I'd just say that: it helped me and others. --And exactly backwards: what we didn't make a big deal of, was: the funeral --When it really hit me... when I realized & acknowledged the death, I accepted it. --Regarding CHURCHES, RELIGION, etc: nothing. No, even less, something that hindered my thoughts to become clear. --Religious Affiliation: past catholic, now (after thinking a lot about death and suicide in general, not contemplating it): Atheist --Regarding ONENESS of SPIRIT, etc: the only clear answer --Regarding the FUNERAL: the other people annoyed me with their obligatory 'herzliches beileid' (I don't know how to translate that from German) --The weirdest part of it all to me was: Eating great amounts of food at the opulent dinner after the funeral --RE: Near Death Experiences: I was so stoned, I was in physical shock, I believed I was going to die, and my only thought was "NOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!". This still freaks me. --Any thoughts about your own death?: I believe that there is nothing after death. I find this easy to cope with rationally, even amusing, but it presents an emotional problem for me, which I face astonishingly calm. (My calm reaction to my own death is what disturbs me) - - - - - P e r s o n a l H i s t o r y - - - - - 1st Death event occurred in my life at: Pre-Teen How'd I do? Very Well What Helped me most deal with death? Helping Other People cope Don't try to play a role, don't act like you think other people think you should act. (cry, wear black, talk in a hush, 'avoid' the issue 'tactfully') What Hindered me most in my dealing with death? Religion/Clergy comments that are obviosly obfuscating the facts, but of course are 'well intentioned' - - - Comments on this Questionnaire & collection GuestBook - - - It reminded me that in the past I thought about death more often and was securer in my feelings and reasonings. ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ Mon Mar 5 22:42:42 2001 F21 in Toronto, Ontario =Canada= Name: Nadia Email: <avagreen15=at=hotmail.com> - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Found us by: [ Web Search: ] just looking up death and dying because im taking a psychology course about it at my university - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Prof/Studies: Psychology student - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Most Significant Recent Death Exp was death of GrandFather, 3.5 yrs ago. Cause of Death: cancer; Aged: 78. --Details: It was a long process of dying because he had a chronic illness which was also interrupted with a stroke. He was in the hospital for the last month and a half as well so it was like holding on to false hope, or just waiting for the inevitable. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - T O P I C A L S - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - --Death Is: when the body stops functioning and that person as we know them is gone. We only have their legacy that remains within the people that knew him or her. --The first time I ever experienced someone's death, I was hit with a total surprise as to what it really felt like. The understanding that it was FINAL was such a new feeling for me that would change my experiences from then on. --That first time, how it happened was How it happened was...i was informed of my grandmother's death but she lived far away and i didnt know her well. --The Most Vivid memory I have of this most recent death is: the bond that was created with those left behind. I never really knew how important family was until those days of grieving began. The most vivid feelings were the total shock i felt when the realization that it actually happened to us (my family) and especially me and then seeing the body that wasn't breathing. --What I think my (Canada) culture needs to better learn about death is: It is sometimes a good thing. --One gift for which I shall always be grateful is: being able to understand how humans affect each other in the simplest ways. --What was of most support to me in my experience with death was: being around family because they could appreciate what i was going through. --And the most difficult for me in my experience with death was: The hardest part was seeing my friends at the funeral home because that made the whole thing so much more real. --Regarding just Being There for someone dying, my advice would be: don't fake anything. --[My GrandFather's] death taught me so much. I'd have others know how I: am now more ready to deal with death when it happens to others. I feel 'stronger' and realize that the family left behind by the deceased is the group that needs the most support. --The most confusing point of death for me was when: Confused?? hmm... oh when we (the extended family) were gathered at my grandmother's house and were laughing. It seemed like the strangest thing, and perhaps wrong. I had always thought it should be all sad but I don't think anyone can be sad for such a long period of time... our emotions were all over the place. --Regarding Humor in the death process, I'd just say that: i needed it! --Not that it's a regret, but I would like to have better had time to: speak to him more. He only understood Italian and i felt uncomfortable speaking it with other people around - and there was always someone else around. I visited the hospital when i could and he spoke to me but I didnt really get the chance to say anything... or to tell him how grateful i was to have had him there for me. --But some things worked out so well... I'm SO GLAD I was able to: cope.. It was hard at first but I knew I couldn't live like that. --One seemingly minor thing (yet important) which impressed me was when: we were picking pictures to put up at the funeral home. --In another dimension of Life where this all had never happened... If it hadn't happened, and I didn't know it was going to happen, things would be very distant. I would have grown further away as was happening before and I wouldn't have this insight. Who knows how I would be... I obviously still wish he was around, I find it very sad that it took his death for me to realize his worth.. and his wonderful character that has helped me to grow as a person just through reflection. --Sometimes I think: It's just not fair... why does death have to involve so much suffering? --When it really hit me... when I realized & acknowledged the death, I burst out in tears and fell to the ground.. it came out of nowhere, i thought i was fine!! But seeing other people and thinking it through i just didnt know what else to do. --Regarding MEDICINE, DOCTORS, etc: hate... ive always had this belief that hospitals are where you go to get better.. it turned out to be a fantasy. --Regarding HOSPICE etc: it was impersonal. they were just doing their job, my grandfather was just another client or patient that needed taking care of... --Regarding CHURCHES, RELIGION, etc: more to the older generation --Religious Affiliation: Roman Catholic --Regarding MONEY: the costs were divided among the family.. it wasnt easy to deal with at the time but it had to be done so there wasnt really a chance to debate prices and so on. --Regarding the FUNERAL: there were a lot of people and it helped to know that people cared for him.. and the familiar faces helped too. --The weirdest part of it all to me was: My dad didnt tell me when he called home that he had died, I still cant figure out why. --RE: Visions from the 'Other Side': I think he spoke about being with his parents. I vaguely remember him mentioning his mother near the end of his life. --How might you deal with yet unresolved issues from a death?: Feelings of wanting to reach out and become closer to him.. i always held back, for no reason. The only thing i can do to resolve that is to not let it happen again.. if i get that feeling, i will try not to let my insecurities stop me. Who might help me? Probably no one but myself. --If we were to visit one last conversation... I would have liked to say Thank you for everything.. I did actually write a letter and put it in my grandfather's coffin, i think it helped me in some small way. --Regarding Rights & Wishes of the Dying: I dont know what my grandfather really wanted.. i think he was scared and worried about us. I hope he was at a stage of acceptance when the time came, but i dont think he was ready to go, but does anyone really ever want to go when they have a good family and home etc.? Regarding the Rights and Wishes, i believe that a person should not be 'kept' alive if they are ready to leave and are in a lot of pain. --Any thoughts about your own death?: I dont think I believe Im going to die. Im a healthy young adult with a long future ahead of me right? I can tell myself this isnt true and try to make myself believe it.. i even tell myself to be thankful for each day.. but if i knew i was going to die in say a year -Everything would change for sure! --Any Coping Ritual or Event you invented / devised to help you cope: Realizing the positive things about the person that you wish to carry with you in your lifetime. Its not so much memories as real traits. --Any Coping Rituals or Events which have carried over into your life? What i took from my grandfather was his bravery and goodness.. but most importantly for my everyday life was this idea that he didnt complain about things.. well he had his moments with my grandmother.. but from what i remember he didnt regret the hardships he went through but took them as they came and adapted or at least didnt show his family how much things impacted him. --Any New Friends emerge in the shared grieving process of Death? Friendships with family members.. Mainly my cousins.. we all went through it together and even though we may not discuss the details of that time anymore (although we have) it brought us together and i dont think that will ever change. - - - - - P e r s o n a l H i s t o r y - - - - - 1st Death event occurred in my life at: Pre-Teen How'd I do? Well What Helped me most deal with death? Other: Acceptance What Hindered me most in my dealing with death? Disbelief it could happen - - - Comments on this Questionnaire & collection GuestBook - - - It helped me clarify what i already knew about my experience but i felt a little strange writing about personal things because i dont know if anyone else can actually learn from reading things ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ Sat Mar 3 04:16:54 2001 M23 in nagpur, maharashtra =india= - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Found us by: [ Web Search: ] yahoo category search - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Prof/Studies: Diploma in Engineering - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Recommended Reading-- Titles: Life after death - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Most Significant Recent Death Exp was death of Father, 2 month ago. Cause of Death: Heart attack; Aged: 56. --Details: He was sleeping alone in the ground floor, and we on the top floor, we came to know about it on the morning. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - T O P I C A L S - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - --Death Is: going to the upper plane of life. --That first time, how it happened was How it happened was...My father died on jan 15th 2001, i felt bad about it --The most confusing point of death for me was when: what my father might have felt when we did not talk to him in the last moment. - - - - - P e r s o n a l H i s t o r y - - - - - 1st Death event occurred in my life at: Still has not How'd I do? How well What Helped me most deal with death? Family's Sensitivities What Hindered me most in my dealing with death? Guilt ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ Fri Mar 2 00:10:48 2001 M29 in Bogalusa, LA =U.S.= Name: Zavier Email: <zavier01=at=yahoo.com> - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Found us by: [ Web Search: ] Looking at polls/surveys - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Prof/Studies: iceman - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Most Significant Recent Death Exp was death of Father, 18 years ago. Cause of Death: heart attack; Aged: 45?. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - T O P I C A L S - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - --Death Is: Where our mortal shells release our true selves. --The first time I ever experienced someone's death, I Understood what to expect. --That first time, how it happened was How it happened was... From 12 to 17 (in order) my father, grandmother, cousin, mother, and uncle died. (My other grandparents were already gone when I was born). --The Most Vivid memory I have of this most recent death is: Knowing I was going to change. --What I think my (U.S.) culture needs to better learn about death is: It's inevitable. Birth, life, death, are but three points. There is a third. Rebirth. --One gift for which I shall always be grateful is: Realizing that without death, life would be barren, and horrible. --What was of most support to me in my experience with death was: Some was my friends, but I really owe my sanity to Quincy Adams, a girl I dreamed about several times over the years. Each dream was unique, but it may have been just my subconsciousness trying to heal what it could. --And the most difficult for me in my experience with death was: Not learning what they could have taught me. --Regarding just Being There for someone dying, my advice would be: Make them smile if you can, though laughing would be better. Let them know all the feelings you never talked about. --[My Mother's] death taught me so much. I'd have others know how I: Could handle death by thinking of questions, and trying to figure the answers out by myself. --The most confusing point of death for me was when: My mother was nearly dead of cancer, yet the hospital kept trying to have her hold on a bit longer, like she was gonig to suddenly be cured. --Regarding Humor in the death process, I'd just say that: That's what my told me to do while she on her death bed, so I did at the funeral. --Not that it's a regret, but I would like to have better had time to: Study under my father. --But some things worked out so well... I'm SO GLAD I was able to: Keep my dreams and sanity seperated. --One seemingly minor thing (yet important) which impressed me was when: I don't unstand the question. --And exactly backwards: what we didn't make a big deal of, was: Ditto... --I can get all teary-eyed just thinking about it all again when: I don't get teary eyed about what I've lost, but rather realize what I have to lose. --In another dimension of Life where this all had never happened... I know that they would all still have to die. You don't mess with time or fate. But I would like to have said "Later". --Sometimes I think: It's just not fair... Life and death, hand in hand, death is fair, it comes for us all. --It's sometimes so very difficult. I just wish I could Drive, just get in my truck and drive. --When it really hit me... when I realized & acknowledged the death, I Ran into the woods, expecting the worst wasn't over. --Regarding MEDICINE, DOCTORS, etc: Prolonging the pain in terminal cases, healing the others. --Regarding HOSPICE etc: Cancer: They prolonged my mother's life through drugs. --Regarding CHURCHES, RELIGION, etc: Nothing much. --Religious Affiliation: I have myown beliefs, e-mail me (zavier01=at=yahoo.com) and we'll compare thoughts. --Regarding ONENESS of SPIRIT, etc: If life doesn't join us here on Earth, death will certainly join us later. --Regarding MONEY: Getting the funeral, casket, and tombstones paid for. --Regarding the FUNERAL: the children handled death better than the adults. --The weirdest part of it all to me was: As above, thinking I was immune during this time. --SOME OF THE COMMON SIGNS OF DEATH : Death comes at anytime, and anywhere. There are no signs. --SOME OF THE COMMON STAGES OF GRIEF: It;s late, I need to go to bed. Later. - - - - - P e r s o n a l H i s t o r y - - - - - 1st Death event occurred in my life at: Young Child How'd I do? Very Well What Helped me most deal with death? My Belief System Death was taking everyone around me, meaning I was immune. What Hindered me most in my dealing with death? Other: I had a high reading comprehension level when I was young, so I understood. ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ Thu Mar 1 17:58:53 2001 M18 in Wonder Lake, Illinois =Mc Henry= - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Found us by: [ Teacher ] - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Most Significant Recent Death Exp was death of GirlFriend, 1 yr ago. Cause of Death: heart conditions; Aged: 17. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - T O P I C A L S - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - --Death Is: like leaving your best alien friend and never ever seeing him again. --The first time I ever experienced someone's death, I was a littled scared. --That first time, how it happened was How it happened was...I was in second grade and one morning before school, probably around 4a.m. my dad came in my room and told me his dad just died. I really didn't think a whole lot of it becasue I really didn't know him that well. We ended up flying to New Hampshire where he lived for the funeral. --The Most Vivid memory I have of this most recent death is: being in the E.R. room and seeing all the people that were affected by it. --What I think my (Mc Henry) culture needs to better learn about death is: How to cope. --One gift for which I shall always be grateful is: the ability to join with friends and family and help each other come over one of the most difficult things in life. --What was of most support to me in my experience with death was: Driving and listening to lound music, not giving a damn about a thing. Just taking off and putting everything behind. --And the most difficult for me in my experience with death was: accepting the matter! --Regarding just Being There for someone dying, my advice would be: being there for her mom and dad. --[My GirlFriend's] death taught me so much. I'd have others know how I: did not go over the edge and do something stupid to hurt myself. I usually do and for not doing so in this situation made me feel strongly about myself. --The most confusing point of death for me was when: I first heard of the incident. I was trying to think how, why, when, what, etc... --Regarding Humor in the death process, I'd just say that: I did not laugh at all during this time in my life! --Not that it's a regret, but I would like to have better had time to: Say your one of the sweetiest people I have ever met. You define everything a young women is suppose to be. You are like a rose in a bed of thorns. --But some things worked out so well... I'm SO GLAD I was able to: have the chance to meet such a wonderful girl. --One seemingly minor thing (yet important) which impressed me was when: Don't really know! --And exactly backwards: what we didn't make a big deal of, was: ...that it was just her time. That is bullshit! She was only 17 years old. --I can get all teary-eyed just thinking about it all again when: I hear certain songs on the radio, or see people that were there with me during the whole process. --In another dimension of Life where this all had never happened... I might actually be with the girl I still am looking for. SHe would have continued with her life and someday be very very succesful and happy. --Sometimes I think: It's just not fair... She was to young. --It's sometimes so very difficult. I just wish I could break something or hurt myself. --When it really hit me... when I realized & acknowledged the death, I realized that the person just got tired of this world and wanted to go somewhere much better, that's all. --Regarding MEDICINE, DOCTORS, etc: that they did all they could. Nothing they could do could have prevented this from happening. --Regarding CHURCHES, RELIGION, etc: a lot! --Religious Affiliation: -no comment- --Regarding ONENESS of SPIRIT, etc: I really don't know, it is hard to say. --Regarding MONEY: I really don't recal money having any place in this tragic event. --Regarding the FUNERAL: To depressing. People need to be happy. Funerals should be parties celebrating the time that person was able to have on this earth. --The weirdest part of it all to me was: How people who didn't even know one another came together and helped each other. --SOME OF THE COMMON SIGNS OF DEATH : I don't know!! --SOME OF THE COMMON STAGES OF GRIEF: I took a very violent and physical approach. --RE: Visions from the 'Other Side': It was so unexpected, plus I was not there when it happend so I can't answer this question! --RE: Near Death Experiences: -can't recall any experience like this! --How might you deal with yet unresolved issues from a death?: None really. I have moved on and can think about her but still remian in a happy state of mind. It is unfortunate that it happened but there is nothing we can do. --If we were to visit one last conversation... I really enjoyed the movie last night, and oh, by the way, yes I will go out with you. --RE: After-death visits from our loved ones: Never had this happen! --Regarding Rights & Wishes of the Dying: Just party it on down for me. Have one good time in my honor and then go on with your lives. I am in a better place and soon you all will be to. --Any thoughts about your own death?: Shit happens! --Any Coping Ritual or Event you invented / devised to help you cope: Just beat the shit out of a tree stump in the backyard! --Any Coping Rituals or Events which have carried over into your life? no! --Any New Friends emerge in the shared grieving process of Death? yes, for about three months after the death, then it was back to normal. People I didn't usually hang out with I still no longer hung out with. - - - - - P e r s o n a l H i s t o r y - - - - - 1st Death event occurred in my life at: Young Child How'd I do? Very Well What Helped me most deal with death? Music Taking anger out on something!!! What Hindered me most in my dealing with death? Rage none really! --As for reaching out helping others now as part of my healing process: Nothing really, everybody helped each other very good. - - - Comments on this Questionnaire & collection GuestBook - - - It kind of put me in a hasty and/or bad mood. I'm not depressed but as you can tell by some of my responses I just wanted to get on with it and not think about it. - - - Any other questions you feel we should have asked here? The survey was good. I really don't think there should have been something there wasn't. ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ See Feb 01 contributions. See Jan 01 contributions. 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