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Most Significant Recent Death Exp was death of Husband, 3 Months ago.
Cause of Death: kidney cancer; Aged: .
--Details:
he suffered. he was in allot of pain, and hospice was called in
after we drove to maryland for the latest treatments they had ( NIH)
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--Death Is:
going to a better place then earth. being with Jesus and being out
of pain forever.
--The first time I ever experienced someone's death, I
didn't know how top react, I was 11 years old, I saw my father cry
and it upset me terribly.
--The Most Vivid memory I have of this most recent death is:
my husband the day he died. I woke up and he was not breathing. I
called to my son ( age 28) and he came into the room. he bent over
and laid his ear on my husbands chest, then said yes, he is gone.
--What was of most support to me in my experience with death was:
my Dr and my children and friends
--And the most difficult for me in my experience with death was:
My husband is not coming home from work anymore. he isn't discussing
news anymore, or on the computer with me, or in bed with me. He
isn't here.
--Regarding just Being There for someone dying, my advice would be:
talk about what ever they want to talk about. go with them to a
store or wherever they want to go. death isn't always set in stone,
some people deal with it differently.
--[My Husband's] death taught me so much. I'd have others know how I:
coped with it. I really just took one day at a time. I didn't look
ahead to anything, I dealt with funeral, and wake as it came.I
could not look ahead, ir scared me too much.
--The most confusing point of death for me was when:
I had to deal with finances, insurance, grave sites and all of that.
--Regarding Humor in the death process, I'd just say that:
that happens. you have family all around you, and friends, you are
boun to forget and laugh at something.
--Not that it's a regret, but I would like to have better had time to:
we had opportunity to say goodbye, we both knew he was dying. there
is nothing I would have changed, we loved each other.
--But some things worked out so well... I'm SO GLAD I was able to:
get through the funeral.
--One seemingly minor thing (yet important) which impressed me was when:
my husband said "I love you forever and forever"
--And exactly backwards: what we didn't make a big deal of, was:
they commented on how ill my husband loooked.
--I can get all teary-eyed just thinking about it all again when:
I think of my husband that happens
--In another dimension of Life where this all had never happened...
I have not dreamed that
--Sometimes I think: It's just not fair...
he was a decent and honest man, he worked all his life and died
at age 50. he never had a chance to retire and just take it easy
except for his vacations.
--It's sometimes so very difficult. I just wish I could
join him in heaven
--When it really hit me... when I realized & acknowledged the death, I
husband......I cried
--Regarding MEDICINE, DOCTORS, etc:
respect, they gave it a goof fight, and respected all of our wishes.
--Regarding HOSPICE etc:
they are a good organization. I found answers with them, and help.
--Regarding CHURCHES, RELIGION, etc:
my preacher was there. he was there 100%. he offered me all he
could give and I could not have made it without him.
--Religious Affiliation:
Baptist
--Regarding ONENESS of SPIRIT, etc:
right
--Regarding MONEY:
people gave, churches we never attended gave to help us keep going to
maryland for treatment, and friends gave. Just when I was wondering
where the next bit of money would come from, it was tyhere.
--Regarding the FUNERAL:
I was calm. I had allot of support, my kids were all beside me. My
father and sister and brothers were there also.
--The weirdest part of it all to me was:
my roses that my husband hated and he chopped them down every
year came out in full force this year, twice as pretty, I think my
husband was apologising about chopping them down so many years.
--SOME OF THE COMMON SIGNS OF DEATH :
the eyes sink in, the paleness of his skin. just a look on his face
and you could tell he was dying.
--SOME OF THE COMMON STAGES OF GRIEF:
I can't offer much reflection, it was a very hard thing to go
through.
--RE: Visions from the 'Other Side':
that did not happen as far as I know.
--RE: Near Death Experiences:
n/a
--How might you deal with yet unresolved issues from a death?:
no unresolved issues
--If we were to visit one last conversation...
I would think he would say he was alright and he loved me.
--RE: After-death visits from our loved ones:
n/a
--Regarding Rights & Wishes of the Dying:
do what the dying person wants, even if you think it should be
another way.
--Any thoughts about your own death?:
I have thought about it but don't dwell on it. I need to get a will
going, but have paid off the house, and set the 401 payable on my
death to cover my funeral.
--What might you like your obit to say of you:
she believed in God, and loved her family
--Any Coping Ritual or Event you invented / devised to help you cope:
I can't think of anything
--Any Coping Rituals or Events which have carried over into your life?
just that life is really too short, make every day a good day.
--Any New Friends emerge in the shared grieving process of Death?
his side of the family has been more helpful to me then they were
when he was alive.
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How'd I do? A bit rough
What Helped me most deal with death? Passage of Time
What Hindered me most in my dealing with death? Nothing at all
--As for reaching out helping others now as part of my healing process:
my sister did not come around much because my neice on husbands
side of the family was always here. I think that was wrong, my
sister should have come anyway.
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it was helpful in some ways. I am thinkign more about hisdeath
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Anon Guest in =Unknown Locale=
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Most Significant Recent Death Exp was death of Mother, 7 Days ago.
Cause of Death: infection; Aged: 81.
--Details:
My father called me to let me know Mom was in the ICU and they did
not expect her to live through the night. I flew from Chicago
to Tucson Arizona and arrived the in morning to find my mother
still living. We went through a series of events, ending in
dealing with Hospice, and her coming home two Thursday's ago.
She died last Tuesday. I was with her when she took her last breath.
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--Death Is:
A process that has a series of events which can change depending
on the person. It is the process of the body shutting down.
For my Mother it started with her throwing up blood and tissue
with congestion in her chest. Her bladder shut down, her breathing
lessened, she developed apnea, and then died.
--The first time I ever experienced someone's death, I
was young and didn't really understand what had happened.
--The Most Vivid memory I have of this most recent death is:
Being with my Mother over the last days of her life - the honor it
was to be present with her.
--What I think my () culture needs to better learn about death is:
I knew nothing of what to look for - when death came, I didn't know
how it worked or what to look for. It was helpful when the hospice
nurse explained it to me, and showed me what to look form.
--One gift for which I shall always be grateful is:
That I was there. I spent the last 6 days of my Mother's life
with her. I cleaned her, I fed her, I talked to her, I prayed
with her and for her, I was there.
--What was of most support to me in my experience with death was:
I am still dealing with death. For the weeks leading up to her
death, I handled what needed to be handled. I took care of my
Father, put into place the things that needed to be taken care of
for Mom to see she had all she needed.
--And the most difficult for me in my experience with death was:
Giving away my Mom's clothes and going through her possessions
after she died.
--Regarding just Being There for someone dying, my advice would be:
It is for the person dieing, and it is for you as well. I felt
comfort in letting Mom know I loved her, and knowing we were
complete.
--[My Mother's] death taught me so much. I'd have others know how I:
Learned to talk about death with my Father, and didn't view it as
morbid - but necessary.
--The most confusing point of death for me was when:
there was no real way to know when death would occur, or exactly
how it was happening.
--Regarding Humor in the death process, I'd just say that:
I didn't have an uncomfortable period of laughter.
--Not that it's a regret, but I would like to have better had time to:
Study Death more before this happened. I didn't know what to expect.
--But some things worked out so well... I'm SO GLAD I was able to:
be there with my mother. That there were people around that helped
us through the process.
--When it really hit me... when I realized & acknowledged the death, I
checked to see if she was breathing - and I watched her for a
couple of minutes to make sure that is what had happened. Then I
went out to get my dad.
--Regarding MEDICINE, DOCTORS, etc:
Coolness. There were a few stand out people who helped and explained
what was happening. Others were cool.
--Regarding HOSPICE etc:
We were with Hospice for a short time - basically one week. The
first 3 days - it seemed very unorganized, and it was frustrating
because no one could make up their mind what to do for my Mother.
I lost it saying that "hospice is suppose to help people - I
don't feel helped". Then before they delivered Mom home, they
had delivered all the equipment - hospital bed, oxygen etc... and
I asked about bedding. They never told me I would be resposible
for the bedding until I asked them. Then I was given incorrect
information about the size of the sheets to get - I was told twin
- but they needed twin extra long, or specific hospital sheets.
Then when my Mom - on the Saturday before Mother's day - starting
throwing up blood, they took two hours for the nurse to get to our
residence, and then the comfort kit was not there. It took two more
hours for that to arrive, and then the nurae was going to leave me,
after having given my mom the drugs, but Mom was still throwing up
and uncomfortable. I begged the nurse to stay, and she agreed to
stay until Mom was asleep. Then she left me with the morphine and
other drugs, and wasn't going to tell me what to do until I realized
I would be responsible for taking care of Mom, and asked how often
and what do I give her? On Mother's day the nurse came, but then
left without telling us. We waited for her, but she didn't return.
When we called to find out where she was, she told my father that
she had other patients too. On Monday the regular nurse came,
and gave us more information on what to do and what to look for.
Tuesday Morning my mother died. Hospice took care of everything
after that.
--Regarding CHURCHES, RELIGION, etc:
that I called a minister to come in on Monday. The Hospice minister
came and prayed with my Dad, Mom and I. I feel that gave great
comfort to my Mom in her last hours.
--Religious Affiliation:
episcopalian
--Regarding ONENESS of SPIRIT, etc:
real.
--Regarding MONEY:
Mom was afraid that we were spending too much money on her.
She didn't want to be a burden.
--Regarding the FUNERAL:
We didn't have a funeral. My father and I prayed - that was all.
--The weirdest part of it all to me was:
It feels that my mother's spirit left her body about 18 hourse
before she died. I have never heard about that before.
--SOME OF THE COMMON SIGNS OF DEATH :
To be reminded that the last thing to go was the hearing. To be
told the stages.
--SOME OF THE COMMON STAGES OF GRIEF:
I am still new to the stages of grieving.
--RE: Visions from the 'Other Side':
two weeks before my Mother died, she said she saw people when she
closed her eyes, but she didn't know them. She said they were well
dressed though.
--RE: Near Death Experiences:
I did have an out of body experince, where I was aware of all that
was happening around me, but I couldn't move.
--RE: After-death visits from our loved ones:
I have a toy poodle, who would jump up on my Mom's bed, and she said
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What Helped me most deal with death? Passage of Time
What Hindered me most in my dealing with death? Silence & Taboos
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Most Significant Recent Death Exp was death of Friend, 3 Years ago.
Cause of Death: parkinson; Aged: .
--Details:
He had an attack and had choked. He lived far away and alone and
I had visited him a few months before. Someone had found him and
heard the news by another friend.
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--Death Is:
the end of the knowable and the return to mother earth.
--The first time I ever experienced someone's death, I
was puzzled
--The Most Vivid memory I have of this most recent death is:
sadness about his loneliness when he died
--What I think my (Germany) culture needs to better learn about death is:
we should accept death and be together with the dying ones.
--One gift for which I shall always be grateful is:
that we (freinds, relatives, me) still love him/her
--What was of most support to me in my experience with death was:
to talk to others about the dead person, to participate in the
funeral and in relgious ceremonies, to keep things of the dead person
--And the most difficult for me in my experience with death was:
not have said good-bye.
--Regarding just Being There for someone dying, my advice would be:
Don't suppress your feelings and dont let them break the contact
wiht the dying person
--[My Parents's] death taught me so much. I'd have others know how I:
was absolutely honest and candid in my thoughts and feelings
--The most confusing point of death for me was when:
others tried to overcome sadness by joking
--Not that it's a regret, but I would like to have better had time to:
be present whe they died.
--But some things worked out so well... I'm SO GLAD I was able to:
to accompany a coworker who knew that she would die soon of cancer
in regular conversations - accepting her fears anger and dispair
--One seemingly minor thing (yet important) which impressed me was when:
speak his/her name to myself
--And exactly backwards: what we didn't make a big deal of, was:
anxiety
--I can get all teary-eyed just thinking about it all again when:
I think that my child will die one day.
--In another dimension of Life where this all had never happened...
No, I dont do this
--Sometimes I think: It's just not fair...
no, but I I have several times insisted that it's my right to
feel mourning
--When it really hit me... when I realized & acknowledged the death, I
accused Nature and God and said: I do not accept this death
--Regarding MEDICINE, DOCTORS, etc:
poor little helpless craftsmen
--Regarding HOSPICE etc:
the environment is filled with denial and technology
--Regarding CHURCHES, RELIGION, etc:
offer a frame for meeting, and grieving together
--Religious Affiliation:
Christian
--Regarding ONENESS of SPIRIT, etc:
each of us humans is loved by God and the cosmos
--Regarding MONEY:
a gift by heritage
--Regarding the FUNERAL:
that we were a group
--The weirdest part of it all to me was:
that I feel the same sort of love to all of the people who just
had died
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offer a talk about fears, hopes and looking back dn summing up life
--SOME OF THE COMMON STAGES OF GRIEF:
accepting the grieving is important but also that we want the
grieving person to stay with us.
--RE: Visions from the 'Other Side':
in dreams - - the dead ones are alway clearand friendly. These
dreams are very seldom
--How might you deal with yet unresolved issues from a death?:
I talk with the person - sometimes in a psychodrama (sensu Moreno)
--If we were to visit one last conversation...
Not a dream state, but psyhodramatic work (see above). The sentences
are: Your are ok and have been a good friend, son, nephew.
I
feel peace.
--RE: After-death visits from our loved ones:
see above - I always feel assured by such a dream in being me.
--Regarding Rights & Wishes of the Dying:
I reject to be kept living a little bit longer by medicine and this
should be accepted. If its time please let me die.
--Any thoughts about your own death?:
I will confront. I would like not to die alone. I would like to
sing during I am dying: "I am a human and I have lived and now I
die". I am afraid that I will be filled with fears shame guilt and
I hope to get out of that.
--What might you like your obit to say of you:
He was a man with virtues and failures. He did his best. He was
a good friend and a faithful lover and a passionate teacher and
counselor.
--Any Coping Ritual or Event you invented / devised to help you cope:
During normal life I just have a look upon a picture of the person
or things I have inherited and then I say: O yes, dear father",
or ..dear Joe" and so on.
--Any Coping Rituals or Events which have carried over into your life?
see above
--Any New Friends emerge in the shared grieving process of Death?
Yes, I get closer to my brothers by the deaths of our partents and
uncles and aunts.
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How'd I do? Well
What Helped me most deal with death? Crying and Crying
Parents were sad but still in contact with me
What Hindered me most in my dealing with death? Memories to hold
--As for reaching out helping others now as part of my healing process:
just to be with me and not be afarid of my sadness
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I should have been working but I was preferred to deal with this
questionnaire. It was a good experience and I feel somewhat stronger
now. I feel assured about my way of dealing with death
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Not at all. English is not my language - nevertheless it seemed to
me that I have understood all questions -at least I hope so. The
way of adressing the topics seems friendly.
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Thu May 12 21:25:51 2005
M42 in Joelton, TN =US=
Name: Blair
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Cause of Death: housefire; Aged: 15.
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--Death Is:
a very painful experience for the living.
--The first time I ever experienced someone's death, I
was 7. My paternal grandfather died of a heat attack. I was told of
his death
and was not told any details. I was not encouraged to be
a comfort to my
father, not that I was old enough to completely
grasp the enormity of my
father's and my grandmother's loss. My
parents didn't really discuss the
matter.
--That first time, how it happened was
My best friend died in a housefire when I was 15
--The Most Vivid memory I have of this most recent death is:
being outside in the backyard on the driveway, getting out of the
car, my
mother teliing me about my grandfather dying. It was a
cloudy overcast day,
about 430pm. Very gray outside.
--What I think my (US) culture needs to better learn about death is:
Life is for the living and that for those that believe in an
afterlife the dead are
no longer burdened by any earthly bonds
and are in a better place. We are so
very small in a temporal and
physical sense and it's very difficult to
understand this level
of existence while here.
--One gift for which I shall always be grateful is:
having friends and a few adults around that had some previous
experience in
dealing with death.
--What was of most support to me in my experience with death was:
having a few adults recognize I and other friends were really
hurting.
--And the most difficult for me in my experience with death was:
The stoic nature of my parents keeping them from effectively
communicating
with me in dealing wth my loss.
--Regarding just Being There for someone dying, my advice would be:
Understanding the various stages of what dying people go through
and just
being there to listen
--[My Best Friend's] death taught me so much. I'd have others know how I:
life is precious and that you need to make the most of things while
you are
here.
--The most confusing point of death for me was when:
The suddeness of his passing and having an understanding of how we
were
both changing and not been able to effectively communicate
and accept this
new stage of our lives.
--Regarding Humor in the death process, I'd just say that:
???
--Not that it's a regret, but I would like to have better had time to:
Talk to my parents about my loss. and not use drugs and alcohol to
try to
supress/express my feelings.
--But some things worked out so well... I'm SO GLAD I was able to:
have friends to lean on.
--One seemingly minor thing (yet important) which impressed me was when:
we all got together after the funeral and reminisced.
--And exactly backwards: what we didn't make a big deal of, was:
The actual cause of the housefire.
--I can get all teary-eyed just thinking about it all again when:
See a house on fire- i have actually liced through one myself.
--In another dimension of Life where this all had never happened...
At the time of his death we both were changing and were growing apart
--Sometimes I think: It's just not fair...
he/she was so young. had so much promise, had so much to live
for etc.
--It's sometimes so very difficult. I just wish I could
remove my inability to understand the insignificance of the
selfishness of our
earthly desires
--When it really hit me... when I realized & acknowledged the death, I
was in a state of disbelief and once I realized he had died I felt
like I was
pushed down a hill in a car with no brakes.
--Regarding MEDICINE, DOCTORS, etc:
n/a
--Regarding HOSPICE etc:
n/a
--Regarding CHURCHES, RELIGION, etc:
comfort for a great many people other than myself and a powerful
reminder
of the experience of death via rituals (the funeral)
--Religious Affiliation:
agnostic
--Regarding ONENESS of SPIRIT, etc:
the passing from a restricted existence to another existence devoid
of earthly
concerns
--Regarding MONEY:
n/a
--Regarding the FUNERAL:
the suddenness with which my grief came pouring out of me during
the
funeral; old friends that saw me so very upset, how i felt
embarrassed, how
later they told me i had provided them with a
"face" representing our mutual
loss
--The weirdest part of it all to me was:
the smell of the incense at the funeral
--SOME OF THE COMMON SIGNS OF DEATH :
n/a
--SOME OF THE COMMON STAGES OF GRIEF:
n/a
--RE: Visions from the 'Other Side':
n/a
--RE: Near Death Experiences:
n/a
--How might you deal with yet unresolved issues from a death?:
prayer and meditation
--If we were to visit one last conversation...
What happened? did you suffer? Are things better?
--RE: After-death visits from our loved ones:
in dreams he appears as happy yet silent, unknowable.
--Regarding Rights & Wishes of the Dying:
having a will, and appointing an executor of that will that you can
trust to
respect your wishes in all matters spritual and material
--Any thoughts about your own death?:
i have escaped death numerous times - car wrecks, housefires. Yt
i still had
continued to act selfishly, arrogantly as if i
am God. I am 30 days sober for
the first time and have made a
concious choice to improve my life by seeking
a higher power and
am trying to learn how to turn my will over to that higher
power.
--What might you like your obit to say of you:
no thanks - no need to be prideful here. i would like to think
i would have
been thought of as a good person that was able to
share good things with all
people.
--Any Coping Ritual or Event you invented / devised to help you cope:
looking at the constellations throughout the year and knowing my
friend
would want to be in California during the winter and
relating the absence of a
particular constellation we liked
(Orion) to his "being " in california
--Any Coping Rituals or Events which have carried over into your life?
I do still look at the stars when I can.
--Any New Friends emerge in the shared grieving process of Death?
back then yes - there were many freindships strengthened by our
sense of
loss. We have all grown older and apart since then.
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How'd I do? Very Difficult
What Helped me most deal with death? Passage of Time
use of drugs and alcohol as a teenager
What Hindered me most in my dealing with death? Disbelief it could happen
At fiftenn you think you'r einvincible and that you would live
forever. You don't think a person so full of life could be taken
away so quickly.
--As for reaching out helping others now as part of my healing process:
my parents addrssing the issue with me
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yes it has. i have never expressed my thoughts on the matter and
i should
have done this many years ago
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Tue May 10 18:27:38 2005
F22 in Edison, NJ =USA=
Name: Alison
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Most Significant Recent Death Exp was death of GrandFather, 1 Years ago.
Cause of Death: pancreatic cancer; Aged: 85.
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--Death Is:
and end to everything and horrible to explain. We all like to say
that the person goes to Heaven, or gets reincarnated, but some
people believe that when they die they simply decay and nothing else.
--The first time I ever experienced someone's death, I
was six,too young to understand. My mother told me my uncle was
sleeping, and I was terrified to go to sleep for a long time.
--The Most Vivid memory I have of this most recent death is:
when he talked to me about his outcome. I couldn't stop crying,
and eventhough he was dying, he spent the afternoon comforting
me. I felt so guilty after that.
--What I think my (USA) culture needs to better learn about death is:
how to appropriately explain it to children.
--One gift for which I shall always be grateful is:
i appreciated the time that I had to really cherish my grandfather's
everything: words, smile, cooking, wisdom, and stubbornness.
--What was of most support to me in my experience with death was:
my beautiful daughter. She gives me inspiration to live everyday.
--And the most difficult for me in my experience with death was:
in the last week of his life, my grandfather told me not to come
see him, and I had to respect his wishes. I never really got to
say a final goodbye.
--Regarding just Being There for someone dying, my advice would be:
don't tell them "goodbye" when you leave from a visit, always say
"see you later" or "until next time". If they want to talk about
their situation, listen, don't say anything, just listen.
[ Ed. Note: Actually since "goodbye" is derived from the phrase “God be with ye”
I'd suggest that perhaps it's always appropriate to say "goodbye" at any time you'd
like to offer that little bit of comforted reassurance that indeed "God is with you."
... See this Dictionary.com entry for "goodbye" for more info. --JS]
--[My GrandFather's] death taught me so much. I'd have others know how I:
live life for everyday and don't dwell on the negative, live for
the positive.
--The most confusing point of death for me was when:
the doctors told him that he wouldn't be in any pain, but medication
can only block so much pain.
--Regarding Humor in the death process, I'd just say that:
it's okay to laugh. My grandpa had a hospital bed ordered to come
to the house and he didn't want it, and he died at 3 o'clock in
the morning when it should have arrived four hours later. I laughed
uncontrollably, because he had the last laugh.
--Not that it's a regret, but I would like to have better had time to:
tell my grandfather about how much he influenced my life and
parenting style.
--But some things worked out so well... I'm SO GLAD I was able to:
spend as much time with him as possible with my daughter.
--One seemingly minor thing (yet important) which impressed me was when:
he jaundiced and lost weight almost immediately after his diagnosis.
--I can get all teary-eyed just thinking about it all again when:
my daughter asks about him, and asks when she can go to Heaven
because she misses him.
--Sometimes I think: It's just not fair...
that such a dignified and wonderful man should have to die in a
manner other than in his sleep peacefully.
--It's sometimes so very difficult. I just wish I could
hug him and tell him I love him.
--When it really hit me... when I realized & acknowledged the death, I
was shaking and sobbing uncontrollably like a child.
--Regarding MEDICINE, DOCTORS, etc:
respect.
--Regarding HOSPICE etc:
utmost respect and admiration.
--Regarding CHURCHES, RELIGION, etc:
nothing.
--Religious Affiliation:
wiccan, but my grandfather was agnostic.
--Regarding MONEY:
nothing.
--Regarding the FUNERAL:
there were so many people and flowers.
--SOME OF THE COMMON SIGNS OF DEATH :
fatigue and jaundice.
--SOME OF THE COMMON STAGES OF GRIEF:
I had a difficult time believing the reality of the six month
diagnosis, I thought that he would beat it out and live at least
five more years.
--RE: After-death visits from our loved ones:
I had a dream about my grandpa and he told me that he loved me and
to take care of Corinne (daughter) and that he would see me soon.
--Any thoughts about your own death?:
I would cherish evryday with my daughter.
--Any Coping Ritual or Event you invented / devised to help you cope:
I go to his grave once a week and talk to him, bring a flower,
some lunch, and just talk.
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How'd I do? A bit rough
What Helped me most deal with death? Crying and Crying
What Hindered me most in my dealing with death? Denial
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Most Significant Recent Death Exp was death of Mother, 2 1/2 Months ago.
Cause of Death: heart failure; Aged: 83.
--Details:
Even though she was 83 and ill, her death was still very sudden
to me.
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--Death Is:
the end of life on earth but the beginning of life in eternity,
whether it be heaven or hell.
--The Most Vivid memory I have of this most recent death is:
the disbelief that it had happened.
--One gift for which I shall always be grateful is:
Death is tough but not necessarily dark for christians who know that
heaven is in sight. And it does hold gifts...the gift of eternal
life with Jesus Christ. The one thing for which I will always be
grateful for at the moment of my mothers death, was that we were
holding bible study just in the other room. I was surrounded by
my brothers and sisters in the Lord. I was not alone.
--What was of most support to me in my experience with death was:
Support from family and friends who knew better than I did that
this time would come and they were there to comfort me.
--And the most difficult for me in my experience with death was:
Guilt, things left unsaid or things that shouldn't have been said.
--Regarding just Being There for someone dying, my advice would be:
Be more aware and considerate of the person dying than of yourself.
It's all about them at that moment. Your time will come later.
--[My Mother's] death taught me so much. I'd have others know how I:
"That time" really comes. "That time" will come for me too.
You become much more aware of your own mortalness
--The most confusing point of death for me was when:
Things in death are not always understandable but there was not
really anything that was confusing.
--Regarding Humor in the death process, I'd just say that:
Laughter is a form of emotion too. It's a release.
I'm sure the person for whom you mourn would want you to laugh and find something
enjoyable at such a sad time in your life.
--Not that it's a regret, but I would like to have better had time to:
There was time to change. I do have regrets. I did have the
opportunity to..... but I didn't take it. My mom was in a lot of
pain, very verbal, hardly ever slept. I was up with her every night.
Due to exhaustion and feelings of hopelessness, having her beg
me constantly for pain medicine, I became somewhat unsympathetic
( a survival technique I think). I wish I could have been more
loving and caring. We were both desperate.
--But some things worked out so well... I'm SO GLAD I was able to:
keep her at home and not resort to placing her in a facility.
--One seemingly minor thing (yet important) which impressed me was when:
The mortuary and funeral home were very helpful and supportive.
--I can get all teary-eyed just thinking about it all again when:
My grieving is still fresh...there's no way I'm over it and
to some degree will never be "over" it.
--In another dimension of Life where this all had never happened...
I think we all would live in a blissful, painless life.
Don't you?
--Sometimes I think: It's just not fair...
I just wish my mom's life could have been less painful for her.
--When it really hit me... when I realized & acknowledged the death, I
was in disbelief, then shock, then slowly, acceptance.
--Regarding MEDICINE, DOCTORS, etc:
Great gratitude. Not only the medical community, but the services
that were available such as medicare taking care of her medical
expenses and other needs. Very grateful.
--Regarding HOSPICE etc:
They were very helpful. The prescribe and furnish pain medication
that the average medical doctor would never prescribe. The nurses
were compassionate and helpful. I felt like I had a "net" under me.
--Regarding CHURCHES, RELIGION, etc:
The assurance of salvation. How do people who don't know
God cope at a time like this? I know I will see her again.
It's just a short separation for now.
--Religious Affiliation:
I am a born again christian. My demonination is Southern Baptist.
--Regarding ONENESS of SPIRIT, etc:
No matter what your belief....death will come for you and for loved
ones. No one escapes death. Death does not care what you believe.
--Regarding MONEY:
Thank God, my mother was thrifty. She saved her money well and it
was there to cover her funeral. I'm very thankful for that.
--Regarding the FUNERAL:
Again, how helpful the mortuary and funeral home were.
It was pouring down rain for days and days. We could not hold the graveside
service as planned. The funeral home let us use the chapel even
though we had not paid for that in our funeral arrangements.
Then, they could not bury her for many days, due to the wet ground.
They did not charge me for holding the body. They were so regretful
even though there was nothing they could do either. They upgraded
the headstone at no extra charge.
That was Desert View Morturary and Funeral Home in Hesperia/Victorville,
California.
--The weirdest part of it all to me was:
The evening my mom passed away, was like any other evening. I did
not suspect it was going to happen. We were having bible study in
our home, my husband was out of state. As the bible study started,
my mom called for me, screamed for me actually. I went to her,
knew something was wrong, called my friend into the room with me.
She said, I'll stay with her, you go back into bible study.
I honestly didn't even remotely think she was dying. She had had
all these symptoms before. Even though something was wrong, it
was not unusual for her. When I went back into the bible study,
we started talking about the manifestations of God. How he reveals
Himself in our lives when we are going through difficult times.
Many were sharing how they had physically felt His presence at
these times in their lives. My friend came and got me and said
she thought my mom was dying. When I went back into her room,
she was gone. My husband was out of state, on any other evening I
would have been alone. But God, in His complete and perfect plan,
took her on a Tuesday night, when He knew I'd be surrounded by my
"family".
This is not strange. It is God.
--SOME OF THE COMMON SIGNS OF DEATH :
She began to live in the past. Spoke of dead relatives as though
they were alive. One day she said she was talking to God and that
she told him she love Him and He told her He loved her too.
--SOME OF THE COMMON STAGES OF GRIEF:
Be more aware of little things. I ignored them.
--RE: Visions from the 'Other Side':
My mom was calling out to her uncle at the time of her death.
I'm still trying to find out if he is dead or alive. It's highly
possible he's passed on. He would be around 85 y/o. She was
very close to him as a child.
--How might you deal with yet unresolved issues from a death?:
Unresolved issues: Guilt, too much to go into. Ugly things I
said out of desperation and exhaustion. I know she forgives me,
but I need to forgive myself. How to resolve that? Time I guess
and prayer.
--If we were to visit one last conversation...
I would say I'm sorry for loosing my patience and saying things
I shouldn't have said. I would tell her I love her and that she
was a GREAT mom. I would want to hear her say she forgives me
and understands.
--RE: After-death visits from our loved ones:
My mom was bed bound for the last 5 years of her life and in
severe pain. I have had many dreams, not necessarily about her
but she's in them and she's walking and not in pain.
--Regarding Rights & Wishes of the Dying:
Make your wishes known. Don't just assume your loved ones know
what you want. Once you're gone, that stuff doesn't matter to you,
but for their sake, tell them what you want so they don't have to
deal with anything more than they have to.
--Any thoughts about your own death?:
You definately come to grips with your own mortality.
I'm more aware of things I need to tell my loved ones.
I'm more compassionate to elderly people.
Experiencing death definitly changes you !
My own death.....I'm ready. Hopefully I'll live long but no matter
when I die, I'm ready to walk on streets of gold!
--Any Coping Ritual or Event you invented / devised to help you cope:
Actually visiting her grave (once the headstone was there)
has been helpful.
--Any Coping Rituals or Events which have carried over into your life?
She was my mom. She taught me everything. She's a part of my every
day life, from how I clean house, how I cook, how I deal with my
grandchildren.....everything.
I'm the person she taught me to be. I am forever grateful.
--Any New Friends emerge in the shared grieving process of Death?
I have some wonderful, incredible friends and my husband who stuck
with me through many years of caring for my mom. I put all other
relationships, and my life on hold during those years. Now, they
are all here. They've been waiting for me and have not wavered in
their love for me.
I am blessed.
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How'd I do? Well
What Helped me most deal with death? My Belief System
support from friends and family
What Hindered me most in my dealing with death? Guilt
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to type something and relieve that need to share some things than
it is to verbally say them.
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How'd I do? Very Well
What Helped me most deal with death? Lack of Awareness
WE WERE BORN TO DIE.
What Hindered me most in my dealing with death? Funeral and Rituals
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Thu May 5 23:12:07 2005
M26 in victorville, ca =usa=
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Recommended Reading-- Titles:
Holy Scripture
Recommended Reading-- Writers:
various
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Most Significant Recent Death Exp was death of GrandFather, 18 Years ago.
Cause of Death: infection; Aged: 77.
--Details:
He picked up and infection after a simple surgery.
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--Death Is:
The lifting of the dark rain clouds of this life and the begining
of everlasting life. We biologicaly cease to exist yet our soul
carries on to either eternal life or everlasting death.
--The first time I ever experienced someone's death, I
was about 8 years old and it was my grandfather.
--That first time, how it happened was
My grandfather passed away. My whole family lost its patriarch. But
he belonged to God before he belonged to us.
--The Most Vivid memory I have of this most recent death is:
my whole family crying. Then we prayed the rosary. There was about
30+ of us there. It was very moving.
--What I think my (usa) culture needs to better learn about death is:
that it is not the end.
--One gift for which I shall always be grateful is:
it is real. None of us can escape death.
--What was of most support to me in my experience with death was:
The Catholic Church.
--And the most difficult for me in my experience with death was:
is that you will not see that person for a very long time, or
maybe never.
--Regarding just Being There for someone dying, my advice would be:
show them the most love that you possibly can. Pray with them or
for them.
--[My GrandFather's] death taught me so much. I'd have others know how I:
feel about it.
--The most confusing point of death for me was when:
I was 8 and why it happened. It wasn't till I was older that
I understood.
--Not that it's a regret, but I would like to have better had time to:
to be there.
--But some things worked out so well... I'm SO GLAD I was able to:
finally understand why it happens.
--One seemingly minor thing (yet important) which impressed me was when:
my family all came together and was solid and unshakable.
--And exactly backwards: what we didn't make a big deal of, was:
everyone elses feelings.
--When it really hit me... when I realized & acknowledged the death, I
Taken back.
--Regarding MEDICINE, DOCTORS, etc:
incompentecy.
--Regarding CHURCHES, RELIGION, etc:
everything.
--Religious Affiliation:
Roman Catholic
--Regarding ONENESS of SPIRIT, etc:
like garbage. The only thing transends culture, etc. is the fact
that it will happen to us all.
--Regarding MONEY:
it did get in the way.
--Regarding the FUNERAL:
it was beatiful.
--SOME OF THE COMMON STAGES OF GRIEF:
he/she belongs to God before us.
--RE: Visions from the 'Other Side':
Only God knows where we go after we die and not our subconscience.
--How might you deal with yet unresolved issues from a death?:
I miss my grandparents. I can't change this. I justhope they know
that I love them and that I'm sorry for taking the forgranted.
--Regarding Rights & Wishes of the Dying:
I just hope my wife andkids are taken care of.
--Any thoughts about your own death?:
Offer up as many masses as you can for my soul. It needs them.
--What might you like your obit to say of you:
Nick tried and that was the best he could do.
--Any Coping Ritual or Event you invented / devised to help you cope:
Offer up masses that I assist at for their souls.
--Any Coping Rituals or Events which have carried over into your life?
I try to keep my soul in a state of grace so that if something
where happen to me, I might have an outside chance of getting past
St Peter at the pearly gates.
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How'd I do? Well
What Helped me most deal with death? Religion/Clergy
What Hindered me most in my dealing with death? Talking to People
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It has helped me think about mortality for the evening. At least
a little more than I usually do.
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curiosoty
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Recommended Reading-- Titles:
DMT the spirit molocule
Recommended Reading-- Writers:
rick strassman ,isreal regardie
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Most Significant Recent Death Exp was death of Self (near death), 10 Months ago.
Cause of Death: drug overdose; Aged: 21.
--Details:
long story short i overdosed myself on psilocybin mushrooms enough
to experience death without dieing. a glimpse of death if you
will. http://www.fi.edu/press/inline/1honestly.jpg looked like this
yet more intricate and do not let the use of hallcinogens destroy
what little credability my story and vision have. i have done more
than enough research and spoken to enough people even those who have
experienced near death phenominon sober and agree this is a comman
vision. hallucinations on the other hand are to be personal based
on individual experience, this is too wide spread a phenomenon to
discount as mear hallucination. and i shall argue this point to an
accurate scietific degree for wich i havent room here to explain.
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there is both the I and the self, the I being the base of
conciousness and the self being a gathering of life experiences,
upon death these experiences are absorbed or uploaded to the sourace
of all things, after a brief defragmentation and memory wipeing the
I returns to the physical to experience more so that it may be once
again absorbed and learned to the universal subconciousness. there
is no death life is a dream in wich we are the imagination of our
"Selves"
--The first time I ever experienced someone's death, I
felt confused and the need to figure out what does happen when
someone passes and i am qute close to being able to prove what it is.
--That first time, how it happened was
uncles father died of brain anurisym
--The Most Vivid memory I have of this most recent death is:
suffering and confuseion
--What I think my (USA) culture needs to better learn about death is:
conciousness is eternal
--One gift for which I shall always be grateful is:
my own glimpse of death
--What was of most support to me in my experience with death was:
my own mind
--And the most difficult for me in my experience with death was:
my own mind
--Regarding just Being There for someone dying, my advice would be:
love is the key
--[My Friend's] death taught me so much. I'd have others know how I:
understood
--The most confusing point of death for me was when:
the cold flesh void of its vital essence and conciousness
--Regarding Humor in the death process, I'd just say that:
humor is a key element to survival
--Not that it's a regret, but I would like to have better had time to:
love
--But some things worked out so well... I'm SO GLAD I was able to:
experience
--It's sometimes so very difficult. I just wish I could
wipe the current knowledge of things i have, tis lonely when not many
wish to comprehend these things even if you have obvious evidence
--When it really hit me... when I realized & acknowledged the death, I
said to myself "interesting..this sucks"
--Religious Affiliation:
esoteric and mystical studies mixed with modern scientific theories
--Regarding ONENESS of SPIRIT, etc:
we are all one mind
--Regarding MONEY:
we dont have it.
--The weirdest part of it all to me was:
the synchronicities that followed
--RE: Visions from the 'Other Side':
http://www.fi.edu/press/inline/1honestly.jpg this is what it looked
like for me yet much more intricate and alive and it shimmered and
made music liveing beings cannot comprehend
--RE: Near Death Experiences:
hy do the buddist believe the soul reincarnates 49 days after death
while the human fetus exactly 49 days after conception deveolps
enough to become one sex or the other as well as that is when we
grow a pineal gland. just ponder this for a while
--RE: After-death visits from our loved ones:
just a feeling
--Any thoughts about your own death?:
ive thought about this intensely for years and come to accept
it. hell we ll die thats the esiest part of liveing lol
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How'd I do? Very Well
What Helped me most deal with death? Fear of Death
there is no death. yet there is death hehe
What Hindered me most in my dealing with death? Religion/Clergy
close mindedness of religion not relize science and religion go
hand in hand.
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Most Significant Recent Death Exp was death of Mother, 1 Months ago.
Cause of Death: pnuemonia/heart failure; Aged: 87.
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it was sudden; she didnt suffer
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a journey to another place without the body
--The first time I ever experienced someone's death, I
was very young. i remember going to the gravesite of an uncle being
buried, but not much more
--The Most Vivid memory I have of this most recent death is:
a feeling of wishing i had been able to be with my mom at the time
of her death
--One gift for which I shall always be grateful is:
the nice eulogy her preacher gave
--What was of most support to me in my experience with death was:
family and friends
--And the most difficult for me in my experience with death was:
having to go back to a town i loathe
--Regarding just Being There for someone dying, my advice would be:
do whatever it is to help comfort them and make dying a bit easier
--The most confusing point of death for me was when:
a person is put into a non-degradable container before being put
underground; being put underground
--Regarding Humor in the death process, I'd just say that:
it helps in coping with grief when you are discussing things about
the person who died
--Not that it's a regret, but I would like to have better had time to:
help pick out her casket & clothes
--But some things worked out so well... I'm SO GLAD I was able to:
be at the funeral
--One seemingly minor thing (yet important) which impressed me was when:
someone from years ago that you hadnt even thought about since then
comes to the funeral
--And exactly backwards: what we didn't make a big deal of, was:
how everyone was dressed
--When it really hit me... when I realized & acknowledged the death, I
cried
--Regarding MEDICINE, DOCTORS, etc:
negligence
--Regarding CHURCHES, RELIGION, etc:
that my mom happy was happy with her funeral.
--Religious Affiliation:
baptist
--Regarding MONEY:
it was a relief that insurance covered things.
--Regarding the FUNERAL:
things went smoothly.
--SOME OF THE COMMON SIGNS OF DEATH :
difficulty breathing
--SOME OF THE COMMON STAGES OF GRIEF:
knowing the person lived a long, healthy life and going without
much suffering helps.
--RE: After-death visits from our loved ones:
before i went to sleep the night my mom died, i very distinctly
heard her call my name.
--Regarding Rights & Wishes of the Dying:
i do not want a funeral and have threatened my family that if they
put me in the ground i will come back and haunt them for the rest
of their lives. i would rather whoever wants to get together for a
"memorial"...complete with whatever food/drink they want and to play
pink floyd's "dark side of the moon" one time from beginning to end.
--Any thoughts about your own death?:
i can only pray it will be without suffering; i am ready any time.
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What Helped me most deal with death? Ability to Forget
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Wed May 4 13:44:16 2005
M22 in Houston, TX =USA=
Name: Daniel Ramirez
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Had to find you for a grade..
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Prof/Studies: Cashier, Social Work Student
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More personal info:
Please post it. I would like my instructor to see this.
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Recommended Reading-- Titles:
The Bible
Recommended Reading-- Writers:
Matthew, Mark, Luke, John...
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Most Significant Recent Death Exp was death of cat, 4 Months ago.
Cause of Death: feline lukeima ; Aged: 7.
--Details:
I could but I will not... the memory is too painful.
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--Death Is:
something that happens to humans through the passage of time.
Their linear lifeforce eventually runs out and they stop functioning
forever.
--The first time I ever experienced someone's death, I
was quick to the point and held nothing back.
--That first time, how it happened was
It was the death of my grandfather. He had cancer and my dad would
frequently fly to Cali to visit him. We flew for the funeral and
it was one of the many things I still vividly remember.
--The Most Vivid memory I have of this most recent death is:
How pitful he looked and how sweet he still was.
--What I think my (USA) culture needs to better learn about death is:
Death shouldn't be the end of life. Death should be a transformation
into another life, an afterlife.
--One gift for which I shall always be grateful is:
it made me realize how lucky we are to be alive and well. That we
take advantage of life everyday not knowing when is our last.
--What was of most support to me in my experience with death was:
Parents, wife, other cat, God, the Bible.
--And the most difficult for me in my experience with death was:
Letting go and accepting.
--Regarding just Being There for someone dying, my advice would be:
You are loved and you will always have dignity and worth.
--[My cat's] death taught me so much. I'd have others know how I:
view death as important as how we deal with life.
--The most confusing point of death for me was when:
my cat got sick and sicker and there was no way to stop his disease.
--Regarding Humor in the death process, I'd just say that:
this can of urge never occured in me
--Not that it's a regret, but I would like to have better had time to:
Remove the tumor from my cat's eye lid before it got worse.
I suspect that may have been the cause of his cancer to spread and
develop to something unstoppable.
--But some things worked out so well... I'm SO GLAD I was able to:
to not dwell on the cat's death as much.
--One seemingly minor thing (yet important) which impressed me was when:
Family in law mourned the death of the cat as well.
--And exactly backwards: what we didn't make a big deal of, was:
I dunno.
--I can get all teary-eyed just thinking about it all again when:
I do a survey like this.
--In another dimension of Life where this all had never happened...
Not too much except my opinion of dogs would have not changed.
I own a dog now and she's wonderful.
--Sometimes I think: It's just not fair...
Yes. Why does it have to be this way. Why can't this damned
disease be cured.
--It's sometimes so very difficult. I just wish I could
scream and call out God.
--When it really hit me... when I realized & acknowledged the death, I
sad but as sad as the others around me. Felt like sadness was a
mandatory thing in our house for this event.
--Regarding MEDICINE, DOCTORS, etc:
Excellent service.
--Regarding HOSPICE etc:
I don't know, I can't even go there. I haven't had this experience.
--Regarding CHURCHES, RELIGION, etc:
Going to church on sundays. It's something I should start doing.
I haven't gone to church in 5 years.
--Religious Affiliation:
Christianity
--Regarding ONENESS of SPIRIT, etc:
Liberating and not fearing death but anticipating your move to
heaven.
--Regarding MONEY:
Money is inherieted at a cost and that money goes into a great deal
with burials and funerals.
--Regarding the FUNERAL:
The soldiers playing "Taps."
--The weirdest part of it all to me was:
Seeing older people that are in control break down in tears.
--SOME OF THE COMMON SIGNS OF DEATH :
I haven't had this kind of experience, but when I do it will be
probably involving religion and the important figures with it.
--SOME OF THE COMMON STAGES OF GRIEF:
They are not dead, they live on in our hearts and in heaven.
--RE: Visions from the 'Other Side':
it would have to be Jesus.
--RE: Near Death Experiences:
A man told me one time he nearly drowned in a pool and felt it was
getting hotter and hotter. The experience stopped as his friend
pulled him out of the water and resistated him. The man believed
had he drowned he would've gone to hell. He is a now a Christian
man and holds this experience to his conversion.
--How might you deal with yet unresolved issues from a death?:
That they are buried with him.
--If we were to visit one last conversation...
It would only reinforce that there is life after death. This is
not the end.
--RE: After-death visits from our loved ones:
Wife told me when she was 3, she was visited by her mom's dead
mother and Jesus and said her mother attributted this as a sign of
her mother's well-being in heaven.
--Regarding Rights & Wishes of the Dying:
Money, assests and to who is deemed this right. The power of
attorney.
--Any thoughts about your own death?:
It would be devastating but I would be more concerned with the
welfare of the ones that love me, especially my wife. I would
hope to God that he would take care of her and find her another man
to be with her that would love her and cherish her. I also would
write my will entitling her to 100% of my belongings and assests.
--What might you like your obit to say of you:
God made this man so that he could serve others in times of need.
God placed this man for one purpose- to help others. This man loved
others more than himself and always saw dignity and worth in people
even if they were murderers, rapists and the sort. He loved them
as Christ would, only hating the sin committed by them. He gave
his heart out and served as Christ commanded him to. His love is
felt by all of us and shall be missed.
--Any Coping Ritual or Event you invented / devised to help you cope:
Hugging, holding, watching movies, taking my mind off it.
Reading the Bible for reinforcement.
--Any Coping Rituals or Events which have carried over into your life?
None, I can't think of any right now.
--Any New Friends emerge in the shared grieving process of Death?
No, the only person to help me was my wife. It was her cat but
I loved him like my very own. Our new dog is a setup to fill
in our dead cat's spot and to ensure that the other cat does not
grow lonely. It was a good designation.
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How'd I do? Adequate
What Helped me most deal with death? Passage of Time
Religion
What Hindered me most in my dealing with death? Denial
--As for reaching out helping others now as part of my healing process:
Just reinforcement of my own beliefs in death and religion.
Fellowship with that.
- - - Comments on this Questionnaire & collection GuestBook - - -
Yes, it made me revisit our pet's death and to think about my own
death and the welfare of my loved ones.
- - - Any other questions you feel we should have asked here?
None.
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Wed May 4 10:48:51 2005
M17 in Ash Flat, Arkansas =United States=
Name: Terry Lane LeJeune
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Found us by: [ Stumbled on it ]
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Prof/Studies: Sonic drive in
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Most Significant Recent Death Exp was death of Self (near death), 13 Years ago.
Cause of Death: hit by a car.; Aged: 4.
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--Death Is:
Just the begining of a new life.
--The first time I ever experienced someone's death, I
curious and confused. I didn't no what it meant to be dead.
I was just a kid.
--That first time, how it happened was
Hit by a car.
--The Most Vivid memory I have of this most recent death is:
Was my aunt crying.
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How'd I do? Very Well
What Helped me most deal with death? Nothing at all
It just happens. No point in me feeling bad because I nearly died.
If it were someone I cared about then I would be upset and sad.
What Hindered me most in my dealing with death? Nothing at all
--As for reaching out helping others now as part of my healing process:
I didn't need help. I don't let anything keep me down to long.
They're dead, Im not. Mourning is'nt good for anyone. When I die I
don't want anyone to cry for me.
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