Age:[ 30 ] Gender:[ M ]
My Beloved Wife. I first heard this song by Natalie Merchant several months after my wife died, hence the name of the post here. She was 27 and died 5 days after Christmas and 9 days before her 28th birthday. Julie always did have lousy timing. Julie did many things for me in the six years < four married > we were together. She became my best friend virtualy overnight, little did I know at the time that she was interested in more than friendship. It wasn't long before I fell for her big time. She had the most beautiful brown eyes, so deep and revealing. Her eyes were the first thing I noticed about her, how honest they were, how open. She's been gone almost a year a half and in that time I've gone through a lot of changes. A new job, a stronger relationship with my in-laws, a new girlfriend. When she died a popular song at the time was "Forever Autumn" by Justin Hayward. I thought that song summed up everything. It described me, my wife and how I felt about it all. Fortunately I have many people in my life who continue to push me to not allow my life to become forever autumn, but to look to spring and rebirth of the spirit. I have much life ahead of me and shouldn't try to live in the past. Julie and I never shared the same religous beliefs; her being Christian and me being Buddhist, but we agreed that they were seperate paths leading to the same place. She has reached that place before me and I hope that when my time comes I get the opportunity to see her again, to thank her for the wonderful gifts she gave me. She taught me love, devotion, compassion. She taught me to fight for what I believe and to never compromise on my beliefs. I bought this computer after Julie died, it was something we always wanted. So, I have dedicated my web page to her memory, an everlasting tribute to the woman I loved.
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