Why do people like me alredy know at a young age that we will never
see a parent again?  Take it from me, it is the worst.   I would have 
rather chosen death myself than mourn my dads death. 

But I didnt have a choice.   Now you hear about sons and daughters 
killing their own parents and yet I did not kill my father.  And 
I can barely live a day wondering what he would be doing now yet 
those people live a normal life having killed their own famly.

How is that possible?